Here is another Dynasty 2 scene. I figure I'm on a roll with these. Here is the cast used or talked about in this scene. It's a little rough, but you get the idea.
Keith Summers- owns and CEO of SC Johnson Wax, one of the main characters of the soap.
Becky Summers- Keith's ex-wife, now lives in Seattle, pregnant with Keith's best friend's baby.
Sarah Jordan Keith's current wife
Mandy Summers- Keith and Becky's teenage daughter, offering to give her heart (literally) to boyfriend Jesse.
Jesse- Mandy's boyfriend, needs a heart transplant
Bryon Summers- Mandy's baby boy
Miranda Summers- Keith and Sarah's baby girl
The hospital. Jesse is in one room, Mandy in another, Keith, Becky, and Bryon in a waiting room. The doctors are just about ready to perform the heart transplant from Mandy to Jesse when....two doctors pushing a man on a stretcher burst through the hospital door.
Doctor 1: Out of the way! Emegency!
Doctor 2: What happened?
Doctor 1: Fatal explosion at the construction site. A huge boulder fell on him. He's bleeding internally.
Doctor 2: Let's get him in ER stat!
They quickly wheel the stretcher through another door.
Becky: I hate hospitals.
Keith: you'll be here soon you know.
Becky: well, in a different part of the hospital. A more cheerful part.
Keith: Becky, are you sure you won't reconsider my offer and move in? I've got that whole house to myself.
Becky: It's not exactly to yourself. You've got Miranda, Bryon, and about a million servants. And besides, I don't think Sarah would appreciate that idea too much.
Keith: Sarah will deal with it. What do you say?
Becky: I'm sorry Keith but I....
the doctor comes out of ER.
Becky: Doctor! What's happening? Is everything alright?
Keith: Is our daughter alive?
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
TTC vent (again)
I could just scream!! AUGH!!
Have I mentioned before how much I hate my cycle? Because I do.
I made the effort this month to have "perfect" timing.....I actually O'd on a weekend (finally!!) and Dh was actually willing (most likely because I didn't tell him I was Oing...works better when he thinks I actually want to do it). So we had perfect timing...actually got a high reading on FF....one of the few months that happens.
So what happens now?
I'm only 4 DPO and I have spotting....ALREADY!!!! WTH???
I'm also irritable, tired, have slight cramping, and my bbs are sensitve. Mind you...it may sound like positive things....like *air quote* "good signs", but it's not. I feel this way most of the time before af arrives. Lovely PMS. I could just scream or throw something...or both!!
I just don't get it. How did my body get so....broken?? I'm just so frustrated with all this.
I think I may call my OB next week and ask if I can go on clomid again....just clomid. I can't afford to do the progesterone test and pro. supplement, but if it's just clomid I can since that isn't too bad...and I've got birthday money to use.
Making a baby is NOT supposed to be this friggin hard.
Have I mentioned before how much I hate my cycle? Because I do.
I made the effort this month to have "perfect" timing.....I actually O'd on a weekend (finally!!) and Dh was actually willing (most likely because I didn't tell him I was Oing...works better when he thinks I actually want to do it). So we had perfect timing...actually got a high reading on FF....one of the few months that happens.
So what happens now?
I'm only 4 DPO and I have spotting....ALREADY!!!! WTH???
I'm also irritable, tired, have slight cramping, and my bbs are sensitve. Mind you...it may sound like positive things....like *air quote* "good signs", but it's not. I feel this way most of the time before af arrives. Lovely PMS. I could just scream or throw something...or both!!
I just don't get it. How did my body get so....broken?? I'm just so frustrated with all this.
I think I may call my OB next week and ask if I can go on clomid again....just clomid. I can't afford to do the progesterone test and pro. supplement, but if it's just clomid I can since that isn't too bad...and I've got birthday money to use.
Making a baby is NOT supposed to be this friggin hard.
Monday, May 29, 2006
My birthday party
I had a small party to celebrate mine and Bob's birthdays this past Sat. It was a lot of work but turned out well. It was a beautiful day out so we spent the majority of the day outside. Some of us played cards and Uncle Darrell kept Ryan busy! Bob grilled burgers and brats and we had tons of sides, of course, the cake! I didn't receive anything from my birthday wish list, but still received some nice things anyway. Bob and I were exhausted by the end of the day!
Uncle Darrell and Ryan
My mom, dad, brother Don, and I playing Texas Hold'em poker. I ended up winning!
Me getting ready to open cards and gifts.
My mom, dad, and best friend Julie.
Last but not least, the ice cream cake!
Uncle Darrell and Ryan
My mom, dad, brother Don, and I playing Texas Hold'em poker. I ended up winning!
Me getting ready to open cards and gifts.
My mom, dad, and best friend Julie.
Last but not least, the ice cream cake!
Finished product
The flowers after they have been planted, watered, and put in their spots.
These are on the deck in a sunny spot.
These are on the front of the deck between the deck furniture and the grill.
These are my hanging plants on the deck against the house.
These are in the front yard by the door.
These are in the front yard by the sidewalk.
I have more but didn't take pictures of all of them.
These are on the deck in a sunny spot.
These are on the front of the deck between the deck furniture and the grill.
These are my hanging plants on the deck against the house.
These are in the front yard by the door.
These are in the front yard by the sidewalk.
I have more but didn't take pictures of all of them.
Flowers planted
I finally got my flowers planted on Friday. It was a beautiful day so I thought I'd take the opportunity to get it done. These are the flowers I purchased from K-Mart. They didn't have as good of a selection this year as they normally do, but they are cheap!
Ryan of course was helping me. First he started with a cup to scoop out the dirt.
Then he decided to get "down and dirty" and just use his hands.
He was adament about watering the flowers.
We had lots of fun planting the flowers, and still asks me to go to the store to buy more.
Ryan of course was helping me. First he started with a cup to scoop out the dirt.
Then he decided to get "down and dirty" and just use his hands.
He was adament about watering the flowers.
We had lots of fun planting the flowers, and still asks me to go to the store to buy more.
Friday, May 26, 2006
It's my Birthday!
It's here. It's my birthday today. :D
I'm excited (I always love my birthday) yet I'm also sad. I just realized another year of my fertility is gone. Another year yet again I'm not pregnant.
So you may ask, what am I doing on my wonderful birthday? What type of exciting and fun things do I have going on? Absolutely NOTHING. I'm doing laundry (oh what fun) and cleaning (oh even more fun). I need to get the house in order for the party tomorrow. Tell me again why I decided to have everyone over the day after my birthday? What was I thinking? Oh yeah, I was thinking of how badly I want that ice cream cake that my mother refused to buy me. At least I get to stuff myself full of comfort food.
And of course, my darling dh, forgets it's my birthday. This morning he is just about to go running out the door to go to work and I had to remind him. His response: "oh yeah, it IS your birthday isn't it?" augh. I told him he better stop somewhere on the way home from work to get something.
At any rate, it's another year, another day. But it's MY special day darn it! I need to find something fun to do today.
Happy 31st Birthday to Me! :D
I'm excited (I always love my birthday) yet I'm also sad. I just realized another year of my fertility is gone. Another year yet again I'm not pregnant.
So you may ask, what am I doing on my wonderful birthday? What type of exciting and fun things do I have going on? Absolutely NOTHING. I'm doing laundry (oh what fun) and cleaning (oh even more fun). I need to get the house in order for the party tomorrow. Tell me again why I decided to have everyone over the day after my birthday? What was I thinking? Oh yeah, I was thinking of how badly I want that ice cream cake that my mother refused to buy me. At least I get to stuff myself full of comfort food.
And of course, my darling dh, forgets it's my birthday. This morning he is just about to go running out the door to go to work and I had to remind him. His response: "oh yeah, it IS your birthday isn't it?" augh. I told him he better stop somewhere on the way home from work to get something.
At any rate, it's another year, another day. But it's MY special day darn it! I need to find something fun to do today.
Happy 31st Birthday to Me! :D
Thursday, May 25, 2006
Writers Wednesday 5/24/06
Many years ago my best friend from childhood and I made up a soap opera. We spent 3 years of our lives immersed in these characters, stories, plots, and lives. It was so much a part of my life that I knew the characters extremely well, like they were my family. I felt what the characters were feeling, I felt their pain and heartache, their passions and joys, their sorrows and grief. Though we may not have done this soap for many years now, it's still a part of my life as I think about it when I hear certain names, or certain songs.
The soap was called Dynasty 2 (after her favorite soap at the time). I wrote many many things for it, but I will share just a bit here (for today anyway).
The characters involved in this scene probably require some background.
Jeffrey Jordan- 44, lead singer in a rock band. The patriarch of the main family.
Mary Jordan- 40, Jeffrey's wife, housewife.
Candy Jordan (not shown but mentioned in scene)- 20, deceased. She was Mary and Jeffrey's daughter, was killed by a drunk driver a year ago.
Brad (can't remember his last name)- 20, Candy's boyfriend. Now currently living with Jeffrey and Mary.
Trisha- 5, Candy and Brad's daughter. When Candy died Brad assumed responsibility for her and was given custody of her on the grounds that he live with Jeffrey and Mary.
Dec 6, 1991- Friday Morning 7:30am
Scene 1: Jeffrey’s house. Living room. Jeffrey is listening to headphones and dancing around crazily. Mary is reading the newspaper. Trisha is watching cartoons while getting her school books together. Brad enters from the kitchen.
Brad: Trisha! Breakfast is ready.
Trisha: Yay!! I’m hungry!
Brad: Good. I made one of your favorites today. Strawberry waffles.
Trisha: Yummy!
Trisha runs out of the living room to the kitchen.
Brad: Walk!
Mary: You know, you don’t have to make breakfast every morning.
Brad: Well, I want her to start off her day with a nutricious breakfast. It’s the most important meal of the day.
Mary: I can’t believe how much you have grown up since…..
Brad: You can say it. You were going to say since Candy died, weren’t you? It’s ok. I’m moving on.
Jeffrey: (singing) Sad but true…..(still dancing around).
Mary: It’s just that you guys were so close.
Brad: yeah, we were. Can we please change the topic?
Mary: I’m just glad the judge agreed to give you custody of Trisha so long as you live with us.
Brad: Well, I would never leave Trisha to anybody. That girl is my world.
Trisha comes running to the living room.
Trisha: I’m ready for school Brad!
Brad: Did you brush your teeth already?
Trisha: yes
Brad: ok. Say good bye and we are off.
Trisha (to Mary): Bye grandma! (gives her a hug)
Mary: good bye darling. Have fun in school.
Trisha walks up to Jeffrey and taps him on the leg. He sees her and takes off his headphones.
Jeffrey: Off to school already kiddo? (picks her up) One of these days I’ll have to teach you how to play hooky.
Mary: Jeffrey!!
Jeffrey: hey! Just kidding! When you’re about 8 or 9.
Brad: You trying to teach her to grow up a hellraiser?
Jeffrey: Hey! All my kids were hellraisers! It’s a Jordan tradition!
Mary rolls her eyes. Jeffrey puts Trisha down.
Trisha: What’s a hellraiser?
Brad: come on Trish. Let’s go to school.
Trisha: all right.
She grabs her backpack and they walk out the door.
Jeffrey: Hey you. Come here.
Mary walks over to him and they embrace.
Jeffrey: I’m hungry.
Mary: Why didn’t you say so before? I could’ve…..
Jeffrey: Not for food.
Mary: mmmmm. Sounds interesting.
Jeffrey: Very.
They kiss and move toward the couch.
The soap was called Dynasty 2 (after her favorite soap at the time). I wrote many many things for it, but I will share just a bit here (for today anyway).
The characters involved in this scene probably require some background.
Jeffrey Jordan- 44, lead singer in a rock band. The patriarch of the main family.
Mary Jordan- 40, Jeffrey's wife, housewife.
Candy Jordan (not shown but mentioned in scene)- 20, deceased. She was Mary and Jeffrey's daughter, was killed by a drunk driver a year ago.
Brad (can't remember his last name)- 20, Candy's boyfriend. Now currently living with Jeffrey and Mary.
Trisha- 5, Candy and Brad's daughter. When Candy died Brad assumed responsibility for her and was given custody of her on the grounds that he live with Jeffrey and Mary.
Dec 6, 1991- Friday Morning 7:30am
Scene 1: Jeffrey’s house. Living room. Jeffrey is listening to headphones and dancing around crazily. Mary is reading the newspaper. Trisha is watching cartoons while getting her school books together. Brad enters from the kitchen.
Brad: Trisha! Breakfast is ready.
Trisha: Yay!! I’m hungry!
Brad: Good. I made one of your favorites today. Strawberry waffles.
Trisha: Yummy!
Trisha runs out of the living room to the kitchen.
Brad: Walk!
Mary: You know, you don’t have to make breakfast every morning.
Brad: Well, I want her to start off her day with a nutricious breakfast. It’s the most important meal of the day.
Mary: I can’t believe how much you have grown up since…..
Brad: You can say it. You were going to say since Candy died, weren’t you? It’s ok. I’m moving on.
Jeffrey: (singing) Sad but true…..(still dancing around).
Mary: It’s just that you guys were so close.
Brad: yeah, we were. Can we please change the topic?
Mary: I’m just glad the judge agreed to give you custody of Trisha so long as you live with us.
Brad: Well, I would never leave Trisha to anybody. That girl is my world.
Trisha comes running to the living room.
Trisha: I’m ready for school Brad!
Brad: Did you brush your teeth already?
Trisha: yes
Brad: ok. Say good bye and we are off.
Trisha (to Mary): Bye grandma! (gives her a hug)
Mary: good bye darling. Have fun in school.
Trisha walks up to Jeffrey and taps him on the leg. He sees her and takes off his headphones.
Jeffrey: Off to school already kiddo? (picks her up) One of these days I’ll have to teach you how to play hooky.
Mary: Jeffrey!!
Jeffrey: hey! Just kidding! When you’re about 8 or 9.
Brad: You trying to teach her to grow up a hellraiser?
Jeffrey: Hey! All my kids were hellraisers! It’s a Jordan tradition!
Mary rolls her eyes. Jeffrey puts Trisha down.
Trisha: What’s a hellraiser?
Brad: come on Trish. Let’s go to school.
Trisha: all right.
She grabs her backpack and they walk out the door.
Jeffrey: Hey you. Come here.
Mary walks over to him and they embrace.
Jeffrey: I’m hungry.
Mary: Why didn’t you say so before? I could’ve…..
Jeffrey: Not for food.
Mary: mmmmm. Sounds interesting.
Jeffrey: Very.
They kiss and move toward the couch.
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Soul Patrol baby!!
I'm so happy......Taylor won American Idol!! woo hoo!! Soul Patrol baby!
I actually wanted Chris to win...but since he was voted off a few weeks ago, I had to go with Taylor! And I'm so glad he won!
It was an interesting show this evening....even had a performance by Clay Aiken! Boy does he ever look different.
Can't wait to see what Taylor will be doing now (after the mandatory tour of course)!
Go Taylor Go!
I actually wanted Chris to win...but since he was voted off a few weeks ago, I had to go with Taylor! And I'm so glad he won!
It was an interesting show this evening....even had a performance by Clay Aiken! Boy does he ever look different.
Can't wait to see what Taylor will be doing now (after the mandatory tour of course)!
Go Taylor Go!
Writers Wednesday 5/24/06
Ok...I will be sharing something....I just don't have time to write it out tonight. Look for a future post for today's writers wed!!
Monday, May 22, 2006
Happy Birthday Bob!
Today is dh's b-day! He is now officially in the thirty-something crowd. Finally he's catching up to me haha. Already gave him a card, but I will need to go to the store in a bit to get something else for him. He's always saying he doesn't want anything for his birthday, but I want to do something nice. He can be a sweetheart when he wants to be :)
Not doing anything else today though. He prefers to keep his birthday a quiet day. He doesn't like people fussing over him and making a big deal out of it. He did like it though when Ryan woke up. I tried to get Ryan to go up to him to say "happy Birthday". Instead of Ryan running up to daddy and saying it, he says in a very loud voice "It's daddy's birthday??" There went that surprise. Aaahhh, the joys of 3 yr old boys. LOL
We plan on drawing daddy a "birthday party" on Ryan's dry erase board today and if I get time I'll make cupcakes. Ryan wants candles too. HHmmm, whose birthday is this anyway?
Happy 30th Birthday!
Not doing anything else today though. He prefers to keep his birthday a quiet day. He doesn't like people fussing over him and making a big deal out of it. He did like it though when Ryan woke up. I tried to get Ryan to go up to him to say "happy Birthday". Instead of Ryan running up to daddy and saying it, he says in a very loud voice "It's daddy's birthday??" There went that surprise. Aaahhh, the joys of 3 yr old boys. LOL
We plan on drawing daddy a "birthday party" on Ryan's dry erase board today and if I get time I'll make cupcakes. Ryan wants candles too. HHmmm, whose birthday is this anyway?
Happy 30th Birthday!
Addition to birthday list
Forgot to add to the gift cards....Best Buy. I would actually prefer to get CDs and DVD's from there since they have a better selection and are usually cheaper. :)
I know I know
I completely forgot about Flashback Friday this past week. It was a crazy week. I was gone all day Friday going to rummage sales. Yes, it's that time of year again! I hope to be out at least once a week shopping those sales! I bought a bunch of stuff on Friday too. I didn't get home until almost dinner time, and then Julie came over, so I had very little time on the computer. Maybe this week I will post 2 to make up for it!
Good news though..I got my car back finally. It's back to perfect running order again. (for now). Those squirrels better stay away if they know what is best for them!!
Been a busy weekend too...spent most of Sat. doing yard work, and yesterday was mainly just a lazy day at home, doing family stuff. I've been thinking of updating my blog, but I didn't have much to say.
Good news though..I got my car back finally. It's back to perfect running order again. (for now). Those squirrels better stay away if they know what is best for them!!
Been a busy weekend too...spent most of Sat. doing yard work, and yesterday was mainly just a lazy day at home, doing family stuff. I've been thinking of updating my blog, but I didn't have much to say.
Happy Retirement mom!
Last Wed (May 17) was my mom's last day of work. She is now officially retired. She had a small party at work on her last day, so thought I'd share a few pics of that.
Here is the yummy cake! We got to take some leftovers home too.
She received a plaque for her service. 27 years. Though they wrote 26 yrs on the plaque..just like the company to not give credit for the full year.
And of course, Ryan with grandma on her special day.
I just wonder what she will do with all her time now? I mentioned she should babysit more! hehe
Best Wishes Mom!
Here is the yummy cake! We got to take some leftovers home too.
She received a plaque for her service. 27 years. Though they wrote 26 yrs on the plaque..just like the company to not give credit for the full year.
And of course, Ryan with grandma on her special day.
I just wonder what she will do with all her time now? I mentioned she should babysit more! hehe
Best Wishes Mom!
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Birthday Wish List
Since my birthday is coming up (May 26), here is my birthday wish list :)
- Clomid
- Icebergs by Rebecca Johns
- Hilary Duff CD (Hilary)
- Casting Crowns CD
- Sonicflood CD (any of them)
- Jack Russell CD (For You)
- Great White CD (Thank You....Goodnight)
- Law and Order CI DVD (season 2 & 3)
- Grey's Anatomy DVD
- Degrassi The Next Generation DVD (Seasons 1,2, &3)
- books (chick lit books or anything by Karen Kingsbury)
- Laptop (ok, I know I'm asking for a lot here, but this IS a wish list)
- Gift cards from the following places:
- Target (for books, CDs, etc)
- Barnes & Noble
- Michael's (for scrapbooking supplies)
- Famous Dave's Barbeque (YUM!)
There are more things I could probably think of, and I may add to later. I know I have a lot of CDs and DVDs listed...that's because we've had to cut way back on luxury items in order for me to be a sahm, so I rarely ever get CDs or DVDs for myself. We mainly just get the bare necessities. :)
My car vs squirrel
I first noticed it on Friday last week. My car was running rather strangely but I didn't really think much of it. (actually I was just lazy on Sat and didn't want to bother with it). Sunday morning I got in my car to go to church and started up the car and it cluncked out before I even got it out of park. Tried that several times until finally it wouldn't start anymore. Dh had to take Ryan and I to church.
Well, dh came home early on Tuesday from work so he could take a look at my car. Ryan of course wanted to help. He found some leaves in the engine compartment, and after checking it out from a distance, opted to have Ryan come inside by me. Turns out there was a deceased squirrel there! Apparently a not-so-bright squirrel decided my car engine was the perfect place to build a nest and make a home. I ended up killing the poor thing at some point when I used my car. (auugh!! I feel so horrible!!). But the squirrel had the last laugh; he (or she) chewed through 3 spark plug wires and the fuel injector wire. We had to get it towed.
So thanks to Mother Nature and the bottom of the intelligent chain of squirrels, I will be paying almost $300 to get my car fixed. I think there goes my hopes of fertility drugs any time soon. *sigh*
Well, dh came home early on Tuesday from work so he could take a look at my car. Ryan of course wanted to help. He found some leaves in the engine compartment, and after checking it out from a distance, opted to have Ryan come inside by me. Turns out there was a deceased squirrel there! Apparently a not-so-bright squirrel decided my car engine was the perfect place to build a nest and make a home. I ended up killing the poor thing at some point when I used my car. (auugh!! I feel so horrible!!). But the squirrel had the last laugh; he (or she) chewed through 3 spark plug wires and the fuel injector wire. We had to get it towed.
So thanks to Mother Nature and the bottom of the intelligent chain of squirrels, I will be paying almost $300 to get my car fixed. I think there goes my hopes of fertility drugs any time soon. *sigh*
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Writers Wednesday 5/17/06
A poem I wrote about ME after our time together back in '92.
Maybe Someday
Seeing him again was like a dream
Years lost between us brought back like magic
Reminiscing all day and into the night
Brought back many a feelings from long ago
My dream came true that week
New memories fro me to cherish
Crossing the border of friendship
Wanting so badly to be with him.
But not able to have him
Though we both feel the same way
Inquiring how it could be
But the distance would be too difficult.
We both agree it's bad timing
If only we lived in the same world
Longing for each other for years
Long distance relationships never work out.
Deciding to be just friends
Though we both want more
Maybe someday there will come a time
When we can fulfill our wants and desires for each other.
Maybe somedaywe will finally be able
To admit and show our love for each other.
I wish on the stars and moon that
Maybe Someday....
But until then, I'm satisfied with friendship,
For friendship is the most important thing possible,
Without his friendship
I'd be forever lost.
~ Brenda J. Branski
Maybe Someday
Seeing him again was like a dream
Years lost between us brought back like magic
Reminiscing all day and into the night
Brought back many a feelings from long ago
My dream came true that week
New memories fro me to cherish
Crossing the border of friendship
Wanting so badly to be with him.
But not able to have him
Though we both feel the same way
Inquiring how it could be
But the distance would be too difficult.
We both agree it's bad timing
If only we lived in the same world
Longing for each other for years
Long distance relationships never work out.
Deciding to be just friends
Though we both want more
Maybe someday there will come a time
When we can fulfill our wants and desires for each other.
Maybe somedaywe will finally be able
To admit and show our love for each other.
I wish on the stars and moon that
Maybe Someday....
But until then, I'm satisfied with friendship,
For friendship is the most important thing possible,
Without his friendship
I'd be forever lost.
~ Brenda J. Branski
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Where is the sun?
It has been rainy and cold all week. Ryan and I haven't been outside to play for at least a week. Ryan keeps asking me (about every 5 minutes mind you) why can't we go outside. I know this is typical Spring here, but I want my sun back!! Especially since I don't have transportation at the moment...it sure would be nice to get outside! It's supposed to be cold and rainy the rest of this week. It's been difficult finding things to do cooped up in the house with a very active 3 1/2 yr old!
Can't wait for summer. :)
Can't wait for summer. :)
Plans for the week
My plans for the week include:
Staying home (my car is broken.....AGAIN)
Writing my book (now that the season finales of most of my shows are done I can concentrate on this)
Babysit Wed. morning for my neighbor
Leave just after that on Wed to go to my mom's retirement party (she is retiring after 27 yrs!)
Maybe make a recipe out of the cookbook I received for Mothers Day
Staying home.
Sounds exciting doesn't it? haha
I don't have a whole lot to update today. :)
Staying home (my car is broken.....AGAIN)
Writing my book (now that the season finales of most of my shows are done I can concentrate on this)
Babysit Wed. morning for my neighbor
Leave just after that on Wed to go to my mom's retirement party (she is retiring after 27 yrs!)
Maybe make a recipe out of the cookbook I received for Mothers Day
Staying home.
Sounds exciting doesn't it? haha
I don't have a whole lot to update today. :)
Saturday, May 13, 2006
Happy Mothers Day
I most likely won't be around tomorrow (and even if I am I probably won't want to blog on MY day!), so thought I'd send out a little note a tad early.
Happy Mothers Day to all the mommies! (btw- this does include ANY woman who has ever been pg, adopted, or heck, just feels like a mommy).
I'm not sure what's in store for my day, but I sure have mentioned to dh many times over the course of the past week that tomorrow is THE day, so I hope he took the hint.
I will be attending church service and Sunday School in the morning (the norm Sunday morning), lunch and put Ryan down for a nap when we get home, and then head over to my parents' house to celebrate.
Looks to be a busy day. :)
Happy Mothers Day to all the mommies! (btw- this does include ANY woman who has ever been pg, adopted, or heck, just feels like a mommy).
I'm not sure what's in store for my day, but I sure have mentioned to dh many times over the course of the past week that tomorrow is THE day, so I hope he took the hint.
I will be attending church service and Sunday School in the morning (the norm Sunday morning), lunch and put Ryan down for a nap when we get home, and then head over to my parents' house to celebrate.
Looks to be a busy day. :)
Friday, May 12, 2006
Flashback Friday
Here are pics of my wedding...Sept 11, 1999 (yes, 9/11...but it was 2 yrs beforehand. It makes for an awful annivesary though).
We had our pics taken outside at the park dh and I are very familiar with (Grant Park).
And of the wedding party:
We had our pics taken outside at the park dh and I are very familiar with (Grant Park).
And of the wedding party:
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Of cats and men
It has been a ...night.
My dear, lovely, precious cat (she thinks she's so cute) had decided to use my computer speaker wires as a chewing device. I was listening to my Yahoo Music (which I am addicted to mind you) and BAM! my music goes out (on a really good song too of course). I see my dear kitty underneath the desk looking up at me like "what? I'm too cute for you to kill!". gggrr. First it was just one speaker that went out, but that just annoys me so I tried to fix it. Apparently the speakers don't like me because now neither one works. So now I'm speaker-less. I love my cat, I love my cat, I love my cat.
Then there is the man issue tonight. My dh. I love him, I really do. And this wasn't his fault....it was his works'. He is on call this week. He uses a laptop for work, which he brings home every day and I use it at night to write my book. (I could use the computer but the laptop is so much more handy, and dh usually plays his computer game on the reg. computer). Go figure, tonight I'm really motivated to write (or I was) and he ends up getting 50 pages and needs the laptop to figure out the issues. (He's a Systems Admin.....AKA "the computer guy"). Fine. I find something else to do for few minutes. 15 minutes later he's done, I get the laptop back. I'm in my groove, doing my writing thing. He gets another 10 pages at one time and needs it again. *big sigh*. This time I use the computer since he said it's going to be a while. (during this time on the computer is when I dealt with said cat issue). So now I'm getting ticked....switched computers several times now, cat ticked me off, I'm without my Yahoo music which I can't seem to write without. 20 mintues later he says he's done. I switch back to laptop. If he gets another page I'm quitting for the night. gggrrr.
So much for my motivation to write tonight.
I'll get this book written sometime this decade...hopefully.
My dear, lovely, precious cat (she thinks she's so cute) had decided to use my computer speaker wires as a chewing device. I was listening to my Yahoo Music (which I am addicted to mind you) and BAM! my music goes out (on a really good song too of course). I see my dear kitty underneath the desk looking up at me like "what? I'm too cute for you to kill!". gggrr. First it was just one speaker that went out, but that just annoys me so I tried to fix it. Apparently the speakers don't like me because now neither one works. So now I'm speaker-less. I love my cat, I love my cat, I love my cat.
Then there is the man issue tonight. My dh. I love him, I really do. And this wasn't his fault....it was his works'. He is on call this week. He uses a laptop for work, which he brings home every day and I use it at night to write my book. (I could use the computer but the laptop is so much more handy, and dh usually plays his computer game on the reg. computer). Go figure, tonight I'm really motivated to write (or I was) and he ends up getting 50 pages and needs the laptop to figure out the issues. (He's a Systems Admin.....AKA "the computer guy"). Fine. I find something else to do for few minutes. 15 minutes later he's done, I get the laptop back. I'm in my groove, doing my writing thing. He gets another 10 pages at one time and needs it again. *big sigh*. This time I use the computer since he said it's going to be a while. (during this time on the computer is when I dealt with said cat issue). So now I'm getting ticked....switched computers several times now, cat ticked me off, I'm without my Yahoo music which I can't seem to write without. 20 mintues later he says he's done. I switch back to laptop. If he gets another page I'm quitting for the night. gggrrr.
So much for my motivation to write tonight.
I'll get this book written sometime this decade...hopefully.
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
What the heck is America thinking?
You may or may not know, I'm a huge American Idol fan. And tonight, America really let me down! I'm so upset I'm in tears (though that could also be a hormone induced menstrual issue)!
Chris was just voted off!!! He was my favorite, the one I really thought would win this year. I had high hopes for him. He seemed so real and down to earth, has wife and kids, and the only rocker. He sang his heart out last night and this is the thanks he gets. America- what were you thinking?
Even Simon seemed shocked. He even joined the standing ovation for him at the end. I'm really hoping Simon likes him enough to give him a record deal when this is all over.
I just had to get this out of my system. I really wanted him to win. :( I need some ice cream now.
Chris was just voted off!!! He was my favorite, the one I really thought would win this year. I had high hopes for him. He seemed so real and down to earth, has wife and kids, and the only rocker. He sang his heart out last night and this is the thanks he gets. America- what were you thinking?
Even Simon seemed shocked. He even joined the standing ovation for him at the end. I'm really hoping Simon likes him enough to give him a record deal when this is all over.
I just had to get this out of my system. I really wanted him to win. :( I need some ice cream now.
Writers Wednesday 5/10/06
Here is a scene from the book I'm currently writing. It's Michael's point of view and actually appears more toward the middle of the book. This I think will be my last scene I will be sharing from this book, since I have every intent on finishing it and trying to get it published. Enjoy!
After several times trying and asking, Michael finally convinced Becca to spend lunch with him. It was Tuesday and she agreed to a lunch date in between voice coaching lessons. He wasn’t sure if she really wanted to spend her lunch hour with him, or if she did it just to be polite or shut him up, but either way he didn’t care. He had been anxious to see her again, knowing she’s been in town and not able to see much of her. It had been difficult for him, yet there’s that part of him that wanted to avoid her too. He remembered all too well what happened between them so many years ago, yet after all this time he couldn’t seem to stay away, like she was a strong magnet pulling him to her.
He watched her across the booth at Frida’s, a choice Becca had suggested, explaining she was in the mood for Mexican. He wanted to have her pick out the restaurant since she was only in town for a few weeks, and wanted to make sure she got to eat at her favorite places. Her hair had a darker shade to it in the darkness of the room, making her eyes look even browner. She was wearing a brown spaghetti strap halter top with a jean jacket, a pair of jeans, and brown sandals. Her toes were freshly polished red. Michael couldn’t help but admire how she looked, her face glowing as she ate her burrito.
“So how is the coaching going so far? Are you kicking Henry’s butt?” Michael was curious if she was enjoying herself. He hoped this would be a positive experience for her.
Becca nodded, her eyes glistening with excitement. “I don’t know about that.” She laughed, flipping her hair back over her shoulder. “More like he’s kicking my butt. I had forgotten how difficult it was to train and keep the voice in shape.” She took a sip of water, making a face as she swallowed.
“I see you still hate water too.” He chuckled, pointing to her water glass. He remembered even way back in the day she hated water. He would have to make sure she drank enough to stay hydrated. Some things don’t change he thought.
“I wish they would make this stuff taste better.” She scowled, making a ‘tsk tsk’ sound. “The things we have to go through to become a good singer.” Her voice was in a mocking tone as she shook her head.
He smiled and held a lemon in his hand. “You know, that’s why they make these funny little yellow things.” He squeezed the lemon in her glass, wiping his hand on the napkin afterwards. He motioned for her to take a drink. She smiled in approval. “Funny how that works isn’t it?” Michael laughed, wondering why she hadn’t done that earlier.
Becca pretended to smack her forehead. “Why didn’t I think of that earlier? I could have saved myself lots of misery!” Her smile broadened, lighting up her whole face.
“Are you enjoying being back in LA?” His voice was hesitant, wondering if he should ask. He hadn’t talked to her much since he dropped her and said fiancee at the hotel and wasn’t quite sure how she would react. He had been antsy to speak with her and spend time with her since she got here, but he also tried to keep his distance per her request. It was getting more and more difficult though as the days passed.
Michael gazed at her, seeing the stars shimmer in her eyes as she spoke. He could see the excitement in her face. “Are you kidding? I’m loving it! I so miss it: the weather, the restaurants, the ocean, everything!” Her hands were flying around as she spoke, her hair flopping back and forth. He could see that LA was part of her spirit, part of her soul. The old cliché came to his mind: You can take the girl out of LA, but you can’t take the LA out of the girl. It really seemed to ring true of Becca. He wondered why she ever left in the first place.
“Pardon me, did you say you miss it? Because I couldn’t really tell.” He pretended to not understand, attempting a serious look on his face. His eyes were twinkling with delight.
“Very funny Michael. I know you love it when I get all excited about something.” She tried to scold him, but was laughing instead.
“It’s cute to see your arms go flying everywhere and all the peppiness of a cheerleader. Some things haven’t changed.” His voice was nonchalant, hoping to keep things light and fun. He didn’t want to go down the same road they were on months ago. He made that mistake once, and he swore it would never happen again. He couldn’t afford to have her angry with him and run out on the project.
A moment passed of silence as they both ate their lunch. Michael glanced at Becca, gaining the confidence to ask the question.
“Tell me, isn’t there at least a part of you that misses all this?” He held her eyes as he extended out his arm. He couldn’t understand how someone who used to love singing so much, who felt it was her entire life, who loved the city around her, would want to move away, give it all up for someone who is nothing at all like her or can even understand her. He felt like she lost herself and is living a lie.
“You know Michael; we do have good Mexican restaurants in Milwaukee. I don’t think I miss this particular one.” Her eyes were wide and her voice was mocking.
He smiled, loving the friendly banter. They always could joke around with each other so well, feeling so comfortable with each other. “That’s not what I meant. I mean LA, and the singing. Don’t you miss it?” He gazed out the window for a brief moment, taking a breath. “Singing and music used to be your passion Becca. Ever since I’ve known you, it’s what you’ve always wanted. I guess I just don’t understand what happened to you.” He tried to keep his voice soft and gentle, but wasn’t sure how he was coming across. Her reaction was less than what he had hoped for.
Her face scrunched up in knots, her voice was harsh. “Nothing happened to me Michael. I just decided that music wasn’t for me anymore. I wanted a ‘normal’ life. I wanted to settle down, get a real job, get married, and have kids.”
Michael was felt a pang of hurt in his heart. “A real job?” He was stunned she would even say such a thing.
“I’m sorry Michael. I didn’t mean it like that.” She put her hand on his on the table. He ignored the way his heart thumped at the feel of her skin on his.
“I just mean that singing isn’t for me anymore. I have a different life, not necessarily better, but different.” She removed her hand and took a drink of her water now accented with lemon. He noticed how she avoided the initial question. She flipped back her hair and started wringing her hands.
“Yeah, I got that. But that’s not what I asked.” He called her on her avoidance of the topic. She was avoiding it for a reason and he wanted to know why and confront her on it. He knew she should be singing again and was trying to get her to see it his way.
“I should get going. Henry can be a stickler when it comes to being on time.” Becca changed the topic. It was just like her to run out when things got serious and she didn’t want to face the topic at hand. He was upset, yet he didn’t want their time to end together. He slipped his hand on her shoulder.
“You can’t leave without dessert. I know you and chocolate.” He attempted a joking manner, but failed. The banter they had earlier was gone. She was too caught up in the thought of getting away from him. He knew it wasn’t a good idea to get together for lunch, but he couldn’t help himself. He just needed to see her.
Becca smiled weakly, making his heart ache. “Thanks for lunch. I’ll see you next week.” She walked to the door and gave him a wave before walking out. He realized at that moment that whatever they had between them was definitely over. He may feel something for her every time he saw her or talked to her, but it was obvious she didn’t feel the same for him; or if she did, she would never admit it. He lost her a long time ago, and it was time he needed to let go.
After several times trying and asking, Michael finally convinced Becca to spend lunch with him. It was Tuesday and she agreed to a lunch date in between voice coaching lessons. He wasn’t sure if she really wanted to spend her lunch hour with him, or if she did it just to be polite or shut him up, but either way he didn’t care. He had been anxious to see her again, knowing she’s been in town and not able to see much of her. It had been difficult for him, yet there’s that part of him that wanted to avoid her too. He remembered all too well what happened between them so many years ago, yet after all this time he couldn’t seem to stay away, like she was a strong magnet pulling him to her.
He watched her across the booth at Frida’s, a choice Becca had suggested, explaining she was in the mood for Mexican. He wanted to have her pick out the restaurant since she was only in town for a few weeks, and wanted to make sure she got to eat at her favorite places. Her hair had a darker shade to it in the darkness of the room, making her eyes look even browner. She was wearing a brown spaghetti strap halter top with a jean jacket, a pair of jeans, and brown sandals. Her toes were freshly polished red. Michael couldn’t help but admire how she looked, her face glowing as she ate her burrito.
“So how is the coaching going so far? Are you kicking Henry’s butt?” Michael was curious if she was enjoying herself. He hoped this would be a positive experience for her.
Becca nodded, her eyes glistening with excitement. “I don’t know about that.” She laughed, flipping her hair back over her shoulder. “More like he’s kicking my butt. I had forgotten how difficult it was to train and keep the voice in shape.” She took a sip of water, making a face as she swallowed.
“I see you still hate water too.” He chuckled, pointing to her water glass. He remembered even way back in the day she hated water. He would have to make sure she drank enough to stay hydrated. Some things don’t change he thought.
“I wish they would make this stuff taste better.” She scowled, making a ‘tsk tsk’ sound. “The things we have to go through to become a good singer.” Her voice was in a mocking tone as she shook her head.
He smiled and held a lemon in his hand. “You know, that’s why they make these funny little yellow things.” He squeezed the lemon in her glass, wiping his hand on the napkin afterwards. He motioned for her to take a drink. She smiled in approval. “Funny how that works isn’t it?” Michael laughed, wondering why she hadn’t done that earlier.
Becca pretended to smack her forehead. “Why didn’t I think of that earlier? I could have saved myself lots of misery!” Her smile broadened, lighting up her whole face.
“Are you enjoying being back in LA?” His voice was hesitant, wondering if he should ask. He hadn’t talked to her much since he dropped her and said fiancee at the hotel and wasn’t quite sure how she would react. He had been antsy to speak with her and spend time with her since she got here, but he also tried to keep his distance per her request. It was getting more and more difficult though as the days passed.
Michael gazed at her, seeing the stars shimmer in her eyes as she spoke. He could see the excitement in her face. “Are you kidding? I’m loving it! I so miss it: the weather, the restaurants, the ocean, everything!” Her hands were flying around as she spoke, her hair flopping back and forth. He could see that LA was part of her spirit, part of her soul. The old cliché came to his mind: You can take the girl out of LA, but you can’t take the LA out of the girl. It really seemed to ring true of Becca. He wondered why she ever left in the first place.
“Pardon me, did you say you miss it? Because I couldn’t really tell.” He pretended to not understand, attempting a serious look on his face. His eyes were twinkling with delight.
“Very funny Michael. I know you love it when I get all excited about something.” She tried to scold him, but was laughing instead.
“It’s cute to see your arms go flying everywhere and all the peppiness of a cheerleader. Some things haven’t changed.” His voice was nonchalant, hoping to keep things light and fun. He didn’t want to go down the same road they were on months ago. He made that mistake once, and he swore it would never happen again. He couldn’t afford to have her angry with him and run out on the project.
A moment passed of silence as they both ate their lunch. Michael glanced at Becca, gaining the confidence to ask the question.
“Tell me, isn’t there at least a part of you that misses all this?” He held her eyes as he extended out his arm. He couldn’t understand how someone who used to love singing so much, who felt it was her entire life, who loved the city around her, would want to move away, give it all up for someone who is nothing at all like her or can even understand her. He felt like she lost herself and is living a lie.
“You know Michael; we do have good Mexican restaurants in Milwaukee. I don’t think I miss this particular one.” Her eyes were wide and her voice was mocking.
He smiled, loving the friendly banter. They always could joke around with each other so well, feeling so comfortable with each other. “That’s not what I meant. I mean LA, and the singing. Don’t you miss it?” He gazed out the window for a brief moment, taking a breath. “Singing and music used to be your passion Becca. Ever since I’ve known you, it’s what you’ve always wanted. I guess I just don’t understand what happened to you.” He tried to keep his voice soft and gentle, but wasn’t sure how he was coming across. Her reaction was less than what he had hoped for.
Her face scrunched up in knots, her voice was harsh. “Nothing happened to me Michael. I just decided that music wasn’t for me anymore. I wanted a ‘normal’ life. I wanted to settle down, get a real job, get married, and have kids.”
Michael was felt a pang of hurt in his heart. “A real job?” He was stunned she would even say such a thing.
“I’m sorry Michael. I didn’t mean it like that.” She put her hand on his on the table. He ignored the way his heart thumped at the feel of her skin on his.
“I just mean that singing isn’t for me anymore. I have a different life, not necessarily better, but different.” She removed her hand and took a drink of her water now accented with lemon. He noticed how she avoided the initial question. She flipped back her hair and started wringing her hands.
“Yeah, I got that. But that’s not what I asked.” He called her on her avoidance of the topic. She was avoiding it for a reason and he wanted to know why and confront her on it. He knew she should be singing again and was trying to get her to see it his way.
“I should get going. Henry can be a stickler when it comes to being on time.” Becca changed the topic. It was just like her to run out when things got serious and she didn’t want to face the topic at hand. He was upset, yet he didn’t want their time to end together. He slipped his hand on her shoulder.
“You can’t leave without dessert. I know you and chocolate.” He attempted a joking manner, but failed. The banter they had earlier was gone. She was too caught up in the thought of getting away from him. He knew it wasn’t a good idea to get together for lunch, but he couldn’t help himself. He just needed to see her.
Becca smiled weakly, making his heart ache. “Thanks for lunch. I’ll see you next week.” She walked to the door and gave him a wave before walking out. He realized at that moment that whatever they had between them was definitely over. He may feel something for her every time he saw her or talked to her, but it was obvious she didn’t feel the same for him; or if she did, she would never admit it. He lost her a long time ago, and it was time he needed to let go.
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Infertility stinks :(
I haven't talked much about TTC in quite some time. A few months back I decided to give it up to God. You know, quite honestly, as much as I want to, I know I can't do it. I think it's just one of those phrases we tend to say when we are so hurt by all the frustration and pain of it. I had a 2 month break after clomid (break meaning no charting, no timing BD, but still obsessively thinking about it). This is my 3rd month since stopping clomid, 8th month since HSG/lap, and 25th month all together. Honestly, after this long, is there any way I can just stop??? I think not. I'm back to partially charting again (I mean just temping around O time or just when I feel like it) and I'm now taking 1200mg of Vitex...hoping that it lengthens my luteal phase. My first month off of clomid I still had the affects and had a 13 day LP!! Last month was my normal 9 day LP (with spotting starting at 8DPO) and now this month af is on her way.....10 day LP with spotting starting at 8DPO again.
I think what's so darn frustrating is the fact that I KNOW what's wrong with my body. I also KNOW what can help me. I KNOW that clomid fixes ALL my issues (I had a 13 day LP with NO spotting while on clomid). Yet I cannot take it. Darn finances. At this rate I feel like I'm never going to have another baby. I can hear my clock ticking away too as my 31st birthday quickly approaches. *sigh*
So today (or whenever af decides to show up...she thinks is ultimately hilarious to make me think she's coming and then stalls) my temp dropped and more spotting....af should be here. Now starts month 26. I will also be starting my second bottle of Vitex shortly.
Anyone care to send me money for the "Clomid Cause"? LOL I hate insurances. Apparently preventing pregnancies is an important medical issue to them, but actually adding to your family and giving life is not. What a messed up world we live in!
At any rate, I'm still praying for that miracle to happen. Just thought I'd update since it's been a while I've mentioned TTC.
I think what's so darn frustrating is the fact that I KNOW what's wrong with my body. I also KNOW what can help me. I KNOW that clomid fixes ALL my issues (I had a 13 day LP with NO spotting while on clomid). Yet I cannot take it. Darn finances. At this rate I feel like I'm never going to have another baby. I can hear my clock ticking away too as my 31st birthday quickly approaches. *sigh*
So today (or whenever af decides to show up...she thinks is ultimately hilarious to make me think she's coming and then stalls) my temp dropped and more spotting....af should be here. Now starts month 26. I will also be starting my second bottle of Vitex shortly.
Anyone care to send me money for the "Clomid Cause"? LOL I hate insurances. Apparently preventing pregnancies is an important medical issue to them, but actually adding to your family and giving life is not. What a messed up world we live in!
At any rate, I'm still praying for that miracle to happen. Just thought I'd update since it's been a while I've mentioned TTC.
Saturday, May 06, 2006
End of Auction
Tonight is the last night of the PBS auction for the year. Which is kinda good since I haven't done any writing all week! I've been lacking motivation and concentration!
I did pretty well though. My dad was nice and gave me money to bid on a gift certificate to a local restaurant. I won it! He offered to babysit so dh and I could go out for night on the town! I also got my pies I wanted!! I got a gift certificate to Elegant Farmer to get their famous Apple Pie back in a paper bag! YUM! I'm so happy I got that. There were a few other things I was looking at, but nothing I would cry over that I didn't get.
It was a good auction. I'm sad to see if over, yet I'm quite relieved since now I can finally continue on with my life! I think I just lost a week of my life!! haha
Ah well, until next year!
I did pretty well though. My dad was nice and gave me money to bid on a gift certificate to a local restaurant. I won it! He offered to babysit so dh and I could go out for night on the town! I also got my pies I wanted!! I got a gift certificate to Elegant Farmer to get their famous Apple Pie back in a paper bag! YUM! I'm so happy I got that. There were a few other things I was looking at, but nothing I would cry over that I didn't get.
It was a good auction. I'm sad to see if over, yet I'm quite relieved since now I can finally continue on with my life! I think I just lost a week of my life!! haha
Ah well, until next year!
Friday, May 05, 2006
Flashback Friday
I'm starting Flashback Friday, where I will be posting old pictures of me at various times in my life. I got the idea from a friend of mine who was recently looking through a box of old pictures. Enjoy going down amnesia lane with me :) (sorry they will all be pics of pics....don't have that darn scanner).
This picture is one of my favorite pictures of me. It was taken when I was somewhere around 21 or 22 years old. Dh surprised me with a gift certificate to one of those "Fantasy Photo" type of things. I love this photo because I actually look good. LOL And I miss my hair being that long!
This picture is one of my favorite pictures of me. It was taken when I was somewhere around 21 or 22 years old. Dh surprised me with a gift certificate to one of those "Fantasy Photo" type of things. I love this photo because I actually look good. LOL And I miss my hair being that long!
Thursday, May 04, 2006
Music Player Shuffle
How to play: Put your music player on shuffle. Press forward for each question. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
1.How am I feeling today? “You shook me (All night long)” AC/DC (hhmmm….)
2. Will I get far in life? “End of the Innocence” Don Henley
3. How do my friends see me? “Nobody’s Fool” Cinderella (that’s interesting!)
4. Where will I get married? “Jack and Diane” John Mellencamp (that didn’t make sense)
5. What is my best friend? “After All” Peter Cetera and Cher
6. What is the story of my life? “All over now” Great White (oh, that’s not good!)
7. What was high school like? “Another Day in Paradise” Phil Collins (the title is fitting since I loved high school)
8. How can I get ahead in life? “Gone Crazy” Journey (shouldn’t I be on meds for that??)
9. What is the best thing about me? “Slide” Goo Goo Dolls (what does THAT mean?)
10. What is today going to be like? “Sentimental Street” Night Ranger (guess I need to think about the past huh?)
11. What is in store for this weekend? “Could’ve Been” Tiffany (apparently I’m obsessing with the past)
12. What song describes my parents? “Be With You” Enrique Iglesias
13. To describe my grandparents? “Sometimes when we touch” Dan Hill
14. How is my life going? “Run to You” Bryan Adams (to whom??)
15. What song will they play at my funeral? “Unskinny Bop” Poison (ok..that’s scary!!)
16. How does the world see me? “Two Steps Behind” Def Leppard (ouch)
17. Will I have a happy life? “Walk This Way” Aerosmith (is that a yes?)
18. What do my friends really think of me? “Our lips our sealed” Hilary Duff (oh that’s not good!! LOL)
19. Do people secretly lust after me? “All for you” Sister Hazel (I knew I was desirable but….LOL)
20. How can I make myself happy? “Falling for the First time” Barenaked Ladies (But I might get hurt..how can that make me happy?)
21. What should I do with my life? “Sweet Child O Mine” Guns N Roses (sounds good…I want to have 4 or 5 children!!)
22. Will I ever have children? “Shooting Star” Bad Company
23. What is some good advice for me? “No one Like You” Scorpions
24. How will I be remembered? “Home Sweet Home” Montley Crue (not sure how to take that)25. What is my signature dancing song? “It’s My Life” Bon Jovi (haha Ryan likes to dance to this song right now)
26. What is my current theme song? “Pretty Vegas” INXS (interesting since I have no desire to go to Vegas at all)
27. What does everyone else think my current theme song is? “Listen to Your Heart” Roxette (hhhmmmm…what are they trying to tell me?)
28. What type of man do I like? “A Thousand Miles” Vanessa Carlton
1.How am I feeling today? “You shook me (All night long)” AC/DC (hhmmm….)
2. Will I get far in life? “End of the Innocence” Don Henley
3. How do my friends see me? “Nobody’s Fool” Cinderella (that’s interesting!)
4. Where will I get married? “Jack and Diane” John Mellencamp (that didn’t make sense)
5. What is my best friend? “After All” Peter Cetera and Cher
6. What is the story of my life? “All over now” Great White (oh, that’s not good!)
7. What was high school like? “Another Day in Paradise” Phil Collins (the title is fitting since I loved high school)
8. How can I get ahead in life? “Gone Crazy” Journey (shouldn’t I be on meds for that??)
9. What is the best thing about me? “Slide” Goo Goo Dolls (what does THAT mean?)
10. What is today going to be like? “Sentimental Street” Night Ranger (guess I need to think about the past huh?)
11. What is in store for this weekend? “Could’ve Been” Tiffany (apparently I’m obsessing with the past)
12. What song describes my parents? “Be With You” Enrique Iglesias
13. To describe my grandparents? “Sometimes when we touch” Dan Hill
14. How is my life going? “Run to You” Bryan Adams (to whom??)
15. What song will they play at my funeral? “Unskinny Bop” Poison (ok..that’s scary!!)
16. How does the world see me? “Two Steps Behind” Def Leppard (ouch)
17. Will I have a happy life? “Walk This Way” Aerosmith (is that a yes?)
18. What do my friends really think of me? “Our lips our sealed” Hilary Duff (oh that’s not good!! LOL)
19. Do people secretly lust after me? “All for you” Sister Hazel (I knew I was desirable but….LOL)
20. How can I make myself happy? “Falling for the First time” Barenaked Ladies (But I might get hurt..how can that make me happy?)
21. What should I do with my life? “Sweet Child O Mine” Guns N Roses (sounds good…I want to have 4 or 5 children!!)
22. Will I ever have children? “Shooting Star” Bad Company
23. What is some good advice for me? “No one Like You” Scorpions
24. How will I be remembered? “Home Sweet Home” Montley Crue (not sure how to take that)25. What is my signature dancing song? “It’s My Life” Bon Jovi (haha Ryan likes to dance to this song right now)
26. What is my current theme song? “Pretty Vegas” INXS (interesting since I have no desire to go to Vegas at all)
27. What does everyone else think my current theme song is? “Listen to Your Heart” Roxette (hhhmmmm…what are they trying to tell me?)
28. What type of man do I like? “A Thousand Miles” Vanessa Carlton
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Writers Wednesday 5/3/06
Here is part of the profile on Michael for the book I'm writing.
Profile on Michael
Name: Michael John Lowrance
Birthday: Sept 8, 1960
Age: 45
Profession: Keyboardist, guitarist, musician, songwriter for Dark Night. Formerly of Black Ice.
Appearance- long blond hair, a few inches longer than shoulder length, round face, tattoo on left bicep of a red heart and musical bars/notes wrapping around it. About 5’9”, 160 lbs physically fit, likes to work out to keep in shape.
Clothing- on stage likes leather pants, tight shirts. Off stage prefers jeans, button down shirts, usually black or white. Likes boots. Always wears his shirts unbuttoned half way down.
Jewelry- always wears a large silver cross necklace.
Education- graduated high school. Was in college for 2 years, majoring in music education. Got more serious about his band in college. Took piano and guitar lessons when younger and taught himself how to play other instruments.
Born and raised in Sacramento CA. His family still lives there.
Personality
Is outgoing. Loves to talk to people, loves his fans. Tries to talk to his fans and sign autographs when he gets the chance.
Is a follower. Tends to do what others are doing, sometimes doesn’t have a backbone, especially around the band.
Sensitive- can cry at a good movie at times
Romantic- loves to pamper the woman he loves
Generous- gives a lot to those he cares about, sometimes too much
Loves the life he has led as a rock musician. Feels he wouldn’t make it at a normal job, he would be too bored.
Creative- writes the majority of the band’s songs
Talented- plays numerous instruments, can sing, write, engineer, produce
Confident- very confident in what he does
Responsible- takes on his job/responsibilities very seriously. When given a job to do he does it well and follows through until it’s done.
Playful/humorous- likes to goof around and joke around. Loves to make people laugh.
Used to love the rock star lifestyle- drinking, drugs, women. That lifestyle has now gotten old and is just interested in making good music. Loves his job/career, wouldn’t change it for anything.
Likes to keep up on pop culture, music, entertainment. Likes to go out to see the latest movie.
Loyal- is very loyal to his friends/family.
Down to earth and modest- the rock star status hasn’t affected him to the point that he has a big ego. He’s very humble and though he has many fans, he’s very down to earth about his status and fame.
Family
Laura (67) mother- retired insurance claims data processor. She has always supported Michael with his music and career. She always wanted him to follow his dreams and passions since she never had a chance to do that when she was young. She got married rather young and didn’t have money to be able to follow her dreams. She greatly encouraged that with all her children. She has always been his biggest supporter and fan.
Daniel (68) father- retired store manager. A modest man from a small and humble back ground. He worked hard all his life and believes strongly in a strong work ethic no matter what the job is. He had dreams of Michael being the star sports player in the family. Michael is the first born and Daniel had high hopes for him. Was disappointed at first when Michael started a music career, but once he saw how much he loved it and how good he was, he supported it. Daniel has always had a passion for music as well. He taught Michael how to play piano starting at age 5. They couldn’t afford a teacher and Daniel knew enough to get him started. Once Michael learned the basics, he self taught himself many songs. At age 9 Daniel noticed the musical ability Michael had and bought him his first guitar.
Michael is the oldest of 4 boys.
Brian (43)- Michael and Brian are very close. Michael learned how to play the piano and guitar, and would teach Brian. Brian always looked up to his older brother and wanted to be just like him. When Michael first started a garage band Brian would hang out and play, but once Michael got into a real band (Black Ice) Brian fell behind in the background. He hung out with Michael’s former garage band (Hindenburg’s Demise) and ended up becoming the lead guitarist for them. They started off small, playing small local gigs in town, and then made a name for themselves around the regional area. They haven’t made it any bigger, but Brian is ok with that. He just enjoys playing. He is not married at this time, but has been in a serious relationship for 6 years with Amanda (38).
Adam (40)- Systems Administrator. Adam is married to Carrie (41) who is a Pediatrician. Adam is very different from Michael. He wanted nothing to do with music while growing up and afterwards. He enjoyed listening to Michael’s playing as they were growing up, but he resented how much time his father spent with him teaching him and encouraging him. He decided while growing up he wasn’t going to be anything at all like him. When Michael and Brian would be jamming in a garage band, Adam would hang out in the house playing video games or doing homework. He thought Michael was crazy for wanting to be in a band for a living. He was/is an overachiever and troublemaker as a child, trying to get his dad’s attention at times. Their relationship now is ok. Sometimes a bit strained since Michael lives a carefree lifestyle based around music and touring. Adam has the “American” lifestyle of wife, kids, house, and stable job. They don’t relate well to each other and many times don’t know what to say to each other. Michael enjoys the kids though….lives vicariously through them since he doesn’t plan on having any children.
They have 3 children
Elizabeth (10)
Charlie (7)
Iris (3)
Christopher (35)- Carpenter Chris is the baby of the family and since he is quite a bit younger than the rest of them, he didn’t grow up with the shadow of Michael’s prodigy or Adam’s rebellion. He is very proud to have a famous brother and tells people every change he gets. Unfortunately Chris didn’t inherit the musical talents like Michael did, but he loves listening and hanging out with Michael whenever he gets the chance. He goes to concerts and email Michael on a regular basis. He and Adam get along well too. Chris tends to be the “middle” man during family get togethers when Michael and Adam get into arguments.
Chris is in a serious relationship with Sarah (34) for several years. She is hinting around at a more serious commitment (a ring) but he just isn’t quite sure yet. He loves her and wants to spend his life with her, yet he is afraid of the commitment. He sees how Michael has the carefree lifestyle and thinks that’s cool. Not sure what he wants yet. Meanwhile, Sarah is getting impatient, her biological clock is ticking.
Michael loves his parents and is close to them. He emails them or calls them on a weekly basis and when he’s back in town he visits them regularly. Since his parents are retired now and getting on in years, he tries to help them out around the house, either he does or he hires people to help out. He tries to come home for the major holidays, though sometimes he doesn’t make it.
Michael gets along well with his brothers, and being the oldest of all boys, he tends to have a take charge attitude on most situations. He gets along best with Brian, since they have music in common. They are always talking shop during family dinners, much to the annoyance of the rest of the family. Michael is always trying to convince Brian to talk with his manager Brian or Freeman to get the Hindenburg’s Demise a record deal. Brian won’t hear of it. As much as he loves Michael and admires him, he doesn’t want his help or influence. He enjoys the small town gigs. He saw all the crap Michael had gone through due to being famous and Brian would much rather stay a small town musician. Michael enjoys seeing his nieces and nephew and spoils them rotten when he sees them. He also enjoys spending time with Chris. He gives Chris advice in the love department and thinks of Chris as the little adoring brother.
Relationships
Mary (16)- Michael’s first real girlfriend. They were juniors back in high school. They met in orchestra. Michael played the piano in the school orchestra and Mary played cello. She was a big support while he was playing in his garage band. She loved listening to his music and believed he would one day make it big. At that time he never really had the dreams to make it big; he was playing mainly just to play and goof around. His band during high school was never really serious. Mary had urged him to go for his dreams after high school. They were together for 2 years; all throughout the rest of high school. He lost his virginity to her. They broke up when Mary was offered a full scholarship to Julliard for cello and she moved there. Michael was upset but supported that she was following her dreams of her music career. He realized through Mary what he really wanted; a career as a professional musician. He got more serious about his band after she left.
Cheryl (19) Met her at one of the gigs he did with Hindenburg’s Demise while in college. She had been to all the gigs for a month when Michael came up to her and they started talking. They dated for 2 years. She attended the University of Southern California-Sacramento, studying psychology. They would see each other in between classes and gigs. They broke up when Michael started Black Ice and got really serious about getting into a professional career in music. Cheryl had another year of school left and wanted to continue on to get her master’s. He broke it off when he realized she wasn’t as committed to support him on his career path. She was more interested in her education and career.
Deborah (25) Deb was a friend of Matthew's in Black Ice. She would hang around the band frequently while they were partying. This was the time when Michael and the band were making it really big and there were parties all the time. Michael hooked up with her at one of the after show parties. It started as a fling but sort of grew as she was always around. They would party and get high along with the band and Mark's band. They dated for about 1 1/2 years. It was more of a fun relationship. Once the tour ended, Deb stopped doing drugs and wanted to straighten out. She felt she was too old for this now and wanted to settle down, have kids, get a real job. Michael by this time was too far into it to stop. Instead of helping him out, she left. At the time Michael didn't much care though because he was perfectly happy with his drug induced lifestyle.
Becca (18) More detail in “Backstory”
Kelly (32)- Michael was 39. She was an exec at Nickel Records where Dark Night was making their album. His first serious relationship since Becky. Michael was very weary of commitments since Becky left him for another man. He shied away from anything more serious than a few dates, until Kelly. He was intrigued by her. They flirted around a lot while he was there making an album with Dark Night. She ended up moving into his place by 6 months of dating. He was happy with the live in girlfriend concept, until she started hinting toward a ring and further commitment. He was touring a lot and she didn’t want to be the little girlfriend following him around. They broke up after 1 yr of dating when he told her he wasn’t comfortable getting married.
Profile on Michael
Name: Michael John Lowrance
Birthday: Sept 8, 1960
Age: 45
Profession: Keyboardist, guitarist, musician, songwriter for Dark Night. Formerly of Black Ice.
Appearance- long blond hair, a few inches longer than shoulder length, round face, tattoo on left bicep of a red heart and musical bars/notes wrapping around it. About 5’9”, 160 lbs physically fit, likes to work out to keep in shape.
Clothing- on stage likes leather pants, tight shirts. Off stage prefers jeans, button down shirts, usually black or white. Likes boots. Always wears his shirts unbuttoned half way down.
Jewelry- always wears a large silver cross necklace.
Education- graduated high school. Was in college for 2 years, majoring in music education. Got more serious about his band in college. Took piano and guitar lessons when younger and taught himself how to play other instruments.
Born and raised in Sacramento CA. His family still lives there.
Personality
Is outgoing. Loves to talk to people, loves his fans. Tries to talk to his fans and sign autographs when he gets the chance.
Is a follower. Tends to do what others are doing, sometimes doesn’t have a backbone, especially around the band.
Sensitive- can cry at a good movie at times
Romantic- loves to pamper the woman he loves
Generous- gives a lot to those he cares about, sometimes too much
Loves the life he has led as a rock musician. Feels he wouldn’t make it at a normal job, he would be too bored.
Creative- writes the majority of the band’s songs
Talented- plays numerous instruments, can sing, write, engineer, produce
Confident- very confident in what he does
Responsible- takes on his job/responsibilities very seriously. When given a job to do he does it well and follows through until it’s done.
Playful/humorous- likes to goof around and joke around. Loves to make people laugh.
Used to love the rock star lifestyle- drinking, drugs, women. That lifestyle has now gotten old and is just interested in making good music. Loves his job/career, wouldn’t change it for anything.
Likes to keep up on pop culture, music, entertainment. Likes to go out to see the latest movie.
Loyal- is very loyal to his friends/family.
Down to earth and modest- the rock star status hasn’t affected him to the point that he has a big ego. He’s very humble and though he has many fans, he’s very down to earth about his status and fame.
Family
Laura (67) mother- retired insurance claims data processor. She has always supported Michael with his music and career. She always wanted him to follow his dreams and passions since she never had a chance to do that when she was young. She got married rather young and didn’t have money to be able to follow her dreams. She greatly encouraged that with all her children. She has always been his biggest supporter and fan.
Daniel (68) father- retired store manager. A modest man from a small and humble back ground. He worked hard all his life and believes strongly in a strong work ethic no matter what the job is. He had dreams of Michael being the star sports player in the family. Michael is the first born and Daniel had high hopes for him. Was disappointed at first when Michael started a music career, but once he saw how much he loved it and how good he was, he supported it. Daniel has always had a passion for music as well. He taught Michael how to play piano starting at age 5. They couldn’t afford a teacher and Daniel knew enough to get him started. Once Michael learned the basics, he self taught himself many songs. At age 9 Daniel noticed the musical ability Michael had and bought him his first guitar.
Michael is the oldest of 4 boys.
Brian (43)- Michael and Brian are very close. Michael learned how to play the piano and guitar, and would teach Brian. Brian always looked up to his older brother and wanted to be just like him. When Michael first started a garage band Brian would hang out and play, but once Michael got into a real band (Black Ice) Brian fell behind in the background. He hung out with Michael’s former garage band (Hindenburg’s Demise) and ended up becoming the lead guitarist for them. They started off small, playing small local gigs in town, and then made a name for themselves around the regional area. They haven’t made it any bigger, but Brian is ok with that. He just enjoys playing. He is not married at this time, but has been in a serious relationship for 6 years with Amanda (38).
Adam (40)- Systems Administrator. Adam is married to Carrie (41) who is a Pediatrician. Adam is very different from Michael. He wanted nothing to do with music while growing up and afterwards. He enjoyed listening to Michael’s playing as they were growing up, but he resented how much time his father spent with him teaching him and encouraging him. He decided while growing up he wasn’t going to be anything at all like him. When Michael and Brian would be jamming in a garage band, Adam would hang out in the house playing video games or doing homework. He thought Michael was crazy for wanting to be in a band for a living. He was/is an overachiever and troublemaker as a child, trying to get his dad’s attention at times. Their relationship now is ok. Sometimes a bit strained since Michael lives a carefree lifestyle based around music and touring. Adam has the “American” lifestyle of wife, kids, house, and stable job. They don’t relate well to each other and many times don’t know what to say to each other. Michael enjoys the kids though….lives vicariously through them since he doesn’t plan on having any children.
They have 3 children
Elizabeth (10)
Charlie (7)
Iris (3)
Christopher (35)- Carpenter Chris is the baby of the family and since he is quite a bit younger than the rest of them, he didn’t grow up with the shadow of Michael’s prodigy or Adam’s rebellion. He is very proud to have a famous brother and tells people every change he gets. Unfortunately Chris didn’t inherit the musical talents like Michael did, but he loves listening and hanging out with Michael whenever he gets the chance. He goes to concerts and email Michael on a regular basis. He and Adam get along well too. Chris tends to be the “middle” man during family get togethers when Michael and Adam get into arguments.
Chris is in a serious relationship with Sarah (34) for several years. She is hinting around at a more serious commitment (a ring) but he just isn’t quite sure yet. He loves her and wants to spend his life with her, yet he is afraid of the commitment. He sees how Michael has the carefree lifestyle and thinks that’s cool. Not sure what he wants yet. Meanwhile, Sarah is getting impatient, her biological clock is ticking.
Michael loves his parents and is close to them. He emails them or calls them on a weekly basis and when he’s back in town he visits them regularly. Since his parents are retired now and getting on in years, he tries to help them out around the house, either he does or he hires people to help out. He tries to come home for the major holidays, though sometimes he doesn’t make it.
Michael gets along well with his brothers, and being the oldest of all boys, he tends to have a take charge attitude on most situations. He gets along best with Brian, since they have music in common. They are always talking shop during family dinners, much to the annoyance of the rest of the family. Michael is always trying to convince Brian to talk with his manager Brian or Freeman to get the Hindenburg’s Demise a record deal. Brian won’t hear of it. As much as he loves Michael and admires him, he doesn’t want his help or influence. He enjoys the small town gigs. He saw all the crap Michael had gone through due to being famous and Brian would much rather stay a small town musician. Michael enjoys seeing his nieces and nephew and spoils them rotten when he sees them. He also enjoys spending time with Chris. He gives Chris advice in the love department and thinks of Chris as the little adoring brother.
Relationships
Mary (16)- Michael’s first real girlfriend. They were juniors back in high school. They met in orchestra. Michael played the piano in the school orchestra and Mary played cello. She was a big support while he was playing in his garage band. She loved listening to his music and believed he would one day make it big. At that time he never really had the dreams to make it big; he was playing mainly just to play and goof around. His band during high school was never really serious. Mary had urged him to go for his dreams after high school. They were together for 2 years; all throughout the rest of high school. He lost his virginity to her. They broke up when Mary was offered a full scholarship to Julliard for cello and she moved there. Michael was upset but supported that she was following her dreams of her music career. He realized through Mary what he really wanted; a career as a professional musician. He got more serious about his band after she left.
Cheryl (19) Met her at one of the gigs he did with Hindenburg’s Demise while in college. She had been to all the gigs for a month when Michael came up to her and they started talking. They dated for 2 years. She attended the University of Southern California-Sacramento, studying psychology. They would see each other in between classes and gigs. They broke up when Michael started Black Ice and got really serious about getting into a professional career in music. Cheryl had another year of school left and wanted to continue on to get her master’s. He broke it off when he realized she wasn’t as committed to support him on his career path. She was more interested in her education and career.
Deborah (25) Deb was a friend of Matthew's in Black Ice. She would hang around the band frequently while they were partying. This was the time when Michael and the band were making it really big and there were parties all the time. Michael hooked up with her at one of the after show parties. It started as a fling but sort of grew as she was always around. They would party and get high along with the band and Mark's band. They dated for about 1 1/2 years. It was more of a fun relationship. Once the tour ended, Deb stopped doing drugs and wanted to straighten out. She felt she was too old for this now and wanted to settle down, have kids, get a real job. Michael by this time was too far into it to stop. Instead of helping him out, she left. At the time Michael didn't much care though because he was perfectly happy with his drug induced lifestyle.
Becca (18) More detail in “Backstory”
Kelly (32)- Michael was 39. She was an exec at Nickel Records where Dark Night was making their album. His first serious relationship since Becky. Michael was very weary of commitments since Becky left him for another man. He shied away from anything more serious than a few dates, until Kelly. He was intrigued by her. They flirted around a lot while he was there making an album with Dark Night. She ended up moving into his place by 6 months of dating. He was happy with the live in girlfriend concept, until she started hinting toward a ring and further commitment. He was touring a lot and she didn’t want to be the little girlfriend following him around. They broke up after 1 yr of dating when he told her he wasn’t comfortable getting married.
My messy find
What is up with dh's anyway? It's like they can't do anything on their own!!
So I come home from my party last night (I'm gone a whole 3 hours mind you) and what do I see when I walk in the house? Everything is EXACTLY as it was when I left. The only difference was Ryan was in bed and dh was downstairs. Dishes were still sitting on the counter; the food leftover from dinner was still on the table, uncovered; Ryan's toys were still all over the living room. So I spend the first 10 minutes of being home doing nothing but putting things away and cleaning up. Now please tell me, since I don't have the brain of a man, why couldn't he have done any of this stuff before I came home? Why is it he thinks it's my job to pick up everything around here?
It was just so irritating to come home to a house that's not picked up and exactly the way I left it. In all honesty, it wasn't even the way it was when I left since dinner was still on the table. When I left dinner was in the process of being made.
*taking deep breath*. Sometimes I just wish I knew what was going through his mind!
So I come home from my party last night (I'm gone a whole 3 hours mind you) and what do I see when I walk in the house? Everything is EXACTLY as it was when I left. The only difference was Ryan was in bed and dh was downstairs. Dishes were still sitting on the counter; the food leftover from dinner was still on the table, uncovered; Ryan's toys were still all over the living room. So I spend the first 10 minutes of being home doing nothing but putting things away and cleaning up. Now please tell me, since I don't have the brain of a man, why couldn't he have done any of this stuff before I came home? Why is it he thinks it's my job to pick up everything around here?
It was just so irritating to come home to a house that's not picked up and exactly the way I left it. In all honesty, it wasn't even the way it was when I left since dinner was still on the table. When I left dinner was in the process of being made.
*taking deep breath*. Sometimes I just wish I knew what was going through his mind!
Bible study blues
Last night I went to my Bible study's end-of-session party. I haven't seen these ladies in a social setting in a few weeks, so it was nice to fellowship, and of course, stuff my face full of yummy food. Can't have a social function without food! I ended up eating too much as always....will have to try to work that off today.
It's a little sad though since this wasn't just the end of the session, but seems to be the end of the group altogether. Our current leader has to step down due to personal reasons, and the other leader we have will be leading the "Leadership Institute" in the fall. So unless someone comes forward to lead the group, we won't be meeting any longer. I'm rather saddened by this news; this group means a lot to me. Not only do I need it for the accountability aspect and keeping myself in the Word, but it was the first group I joined when I was saved. I first heard the message at the Tea Party that was sponsored by the group. So it's close to my heart. I have thought about leading, but I don't feel I'm qualified enough to. I still have a lot of learning to do and growing to do in my faith and don't feel comfortable leading others quite yet.
It was a nice night though, and I even came home with a prize and chocolate :)
It's a little sad though since this wasn't just the end of the session, but seems to be the end of the group altogether. Our current leader has to step down due to personal reasons, and the other leader we have will be leading the "Leadership Institute" in the fall. So unless someone comes forward to lead the group, we won't be meeting any longer. I'm rather saddened by this news; this group means a lot to me. Not only do I need it for the accountability aspect and keeping myself in the Word, but it was the first group I joined when I was saved. I first heard the message at the Tea Party that was sponsored by the group. So it's close to my heart. I have thought about leading, but I don't feel I'm qualified enough to. I still have a lot of learning to do and growing to do in my faith and don't feel comfortable leading others quite yet.
It was a nice night though, and I even came home with a prize and chocolate :)
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