OPK!

I got a +OPK yesterday!! woo hoo!! I'm so excited about it! Bob laughs at me and says he doesn't understand how someone can get so excited over a urine test! I'm just happy that I'm Oing at a decent day!! I'm on CD 16 and should be Oing today! Come on BFP! Now I just need to continue to convince Bob to BD and we should be home free!
I called my OB and she set up a blood test for me for next week. I need to get my progesterone taken again next week. If I O today I will be 6 DPO when I do the test...it technically should be 7 DPO, but she said they want to do it 7 days after the first +OPK. I just hope the clomid is working just as good this cycle....I haven't felt really bad O pains like last month. Making me wonder if it's working in there. I sure hope so! I won't get the results of the test until Dec 12. Feels like forever from now.

Finally finished it!!

I finally finished my 100 Things About Me list!! It's actually 103 things about me!!! Check it out!!

Time for the holidays

Thanksgiving went very well this year! Usually someone's upset at someone else or there's arguing or complaining. But this year everyone got along well and we even played cards afterwards! The food of course was good...though I forgot to bring the pasta salad. Oh well. We managed!

I did not go shopping this year the day after. I take that back..I did go...but just for an hour and it was in the afternoon so I avoided all the craziness!

We put up our tree on Friday! I put up all our Christmas decorations...so it looks all Christmasy now! I love Christmas!

Thanksgiving

Since it is almost Thanksgiving, I feel it is appropriate to share what I am thankful for.

I'm thankful for:

First and foremost for Jesus saving me!
for my wonderful husband that loves me unconditionally
for my beautiful son and his gorgeous, heart-melting smile
for my house..not the best but so much better than what it could be!
for my health
for my cat and fish
for my family...though they are having some difficult times right now, I'm thankful we are all together and will celebrate Thanksgiving together
for the opportunity to ttc
for clomid working in my system...for the opportunity I have to take it!
for my church and church leaders..such a strong, caring Christian family we have at IBC
for living in USA
for enough money to live on
for Bob having a good and secure job
for Ryan being such a wonderful little boy...strongwilled but willing to listen and learn!
for all the things I have
for my parents still in good health
for my friendships I have formed in the last year
for God's forgiveness, even when I continue to sin
for living and breathing with the intent on glorifying God!

Oh Lord, thank you so much for all these things and others I have not mentioned. I don't deserve all the goodness you have given to me! I praise you Lord, and thank you from the bottom of my heart!

Happy Thanksgiving!!

Not much to say....

I'm still working on my 100 things about me list. I'm up to #65. I haven't had time recently to sit down and write it...been working on Christmas cards and other various projects.

I'm halfway through my clomid treatment for this cycle. Things are going great...with the exception of an occassional hot flash, haven't had any s/e to speak of! Come on clomid...do your stuff!

Looking forward to Thanksgiving...it should be a great year. Ryan's all excited about eating turkey!

updating

As you can see, I've made some changes to my blog. I've added blinkies (my favorites as of right now) and have added some links. I will be making changes here and there to spice is up a little!

I'm also continuing to work on my 100 Things about me list. I'm up to #60 so far! It's been fun trying to come up with stuff!!

Also a quick update on my cycle. My OB told me she will keep me on 50mg of clomid this cycle and will do another progesterone test at 7 DPO. She said she expects me to be pg in the next several months!! I have more confidence now that my OB is hopeful with my progress!! Come on BFP!

Picture of my Cally cat!

Here is a picture of my first baby, my kitty! Well, she's not really a kitty anymore...she's almost 6 yrs old now. I call her my first baby because we got her before Ryan was born, as a 1st anniversary present to each other. We adopted her from the Wisconsin Humane Society. She's my callybaby!

100 Things About Me

I am working on a list of 100 Things About Me (thanks Cindy for the idea!), and am up to #23 so far!! It might take me a while to get up to 100, but it's fun working on it! Can't wait to share it when I'm done!

Holy progesterone batboy!

I FINALLY have my test results back. I had to call the nurse today. It's been over a week since I had the test done.
Anyway, when I asked her for the results, she looked them up and actually asked me if I took a pg test. When I said I actually got af yesterday, she was shocked! She asked me how my flow is. I told her it's a normal flow and I'm sure I'm not pg. She then said, well, you DEFINITELY O'd and clomid is working well for me! When I asked her what the numbers were, she told me.

CD 22, 6 DPO progesterone: 136!!!!!

Considering they are looking for anything that's 15 or over!!!! woo hoo!! My progesterone is actually the number you would normally see in pregnancy!!! I'm totally floored by this!!

At any rate, I will most likely be on 50mg clomid this cycle, since that apparently is working well!! My dr wasn't in, but she will consult my dr and get back to me by Friday. If I don't hear anything by Friday late morning, I'll just go ahead and order my refill, since I start it on Sat again.

I'm just shocked by number! I was hoping for at least a 15, but couldn't believe it's that high!!! woo hoo! Come on BFP!!

I was wrong :(

I was totally wrong. It must have been the s/e of clomid I was feeling. A few other women have told me that clomid can make you feel symptoms of pregnancy...but I was so sure I was pregnant. NOPE. Af showed this morning, which I expected the last 2 days because of temp decreases and spotting. I was upset at first, but I'm ok now. I'm happy that clomid actually did it's job for me! I had a 12 day LP, which is the longest I've had, and no spotting until 11 DPO...which is almost a miracle for me! Now I just need that BFP! I'm also excited to be doing another round of clomid!

I still don't have the results of my progesterone test...so I don't know if I will be on 50mg or 100mg next cycle. So I will wait a day or two to call in my prescription. But if I don't hear from my dr today I will call tomorrow.

On to round #2 of clomid!

I finally did it!!

My presentation that is!!

I had my meeting last night (and yes, it actually was last night). I came in carrying all my stuff (in the pouring rain mind you...it always seems to be raining when I need to do my presentation) and I asked if I would be doing my presentation. She said yes, I will make sure we stop at 8:30 to get you in. It went well! I'm so happy I did it! I hadn't even practiced it, so I was going off a whim. But it went well....people asked questions and I apologized for going over the time limit, but no one seemed to care..they were all excited to hear about my presentation. The coordinator asked me also to write an article for the newsletter about TTC after I had talked about my battle with ttc and my passion for teaching others about charting and my message board.
It was hard to talk and I had to stop often since I am battling a cold and nearly lost my voice yesterday. My voice is rather raspy and it's hard for me to talk loudly. But I did well! So happy I have it over with now!!

Waiting...and waiting....

I know I'm pregnant....I just know I am. I just need a pregnancy test to tell me I am!! LOL I know my body so well that I know it feels different. I'm having tons of symptoms.....frequent urination, increased hunger at times, fatigue, constipation, sensitive nipples, watery CM, moodiness, emotional, and cramping off and on. Also no spotting....I normally start spotting around 8 DPO...here I am at 10 DPO and no sign of spotting. My temps are incredibly high and stable now.
I know my body...I know I'm pg!! I just need a darn HPT to confirm it!!!! LOL Darn things. I wish there was a test we can take right after BD that says yes or no the egg was fertilized...so we don't have to go through the agony of waiting.

Af technically isn't even due until Tuesday. But I've been having these symptoms since 6 DPO...when my temp dipped. I tested on Friday but was BFN. I think there just wasn't enough hcg in my system yet. I think I will be brave and try testing again tomorrow. I'm still remaining hopeful.

Please pray that this is it. I hope I'm not making up these symptoms or making my mind think I have these symptoms because I want it so badly. I need to keep busy until tomorrow. I hate waiting!! This 2ww is worse than any other I've ever had!!

no results

I called yesterday for my progesterone test results. The nurse I talked to told me they won't have them back until Monday or Tuesday!! I didn't realize it takes almost a week for them to check one little thing in my blood! Aug. So now more waiting.

Hope to get them back soon....hopefully before af shows again!!

an oopsie!

Ok...so I was a complete moron!! I actually thought my presentation was yesterday. I had been telling people and pysching myself up for this since last week. Guess what....it wasn't!!!! And it was MY fault!!
I missed dinner with my family last night (dinners with family are important to me), made Bob come home early from work yesterday so I could go to the meeting. I drag all my stuff to the car, drive 15 minutes to get there, take all my stuff out of the car and into the place. Go up to the room...it's dark and locked. No one there. Ok. I'm thinking I must be early. I go back down to the lobby and sit there and wait for 5 minutes, getting upset. Did they cancel the meeting and not call me? What the heck is going on? I wait 5 more minutes, looking at some papers on a desk. I look at the date. I drop my mouth.......I just realized that the meeting wasn't that night......it was NEXT week!!! AUGGGGG!!! So now I feel incredibly stupid and embarrassed (there were a few people in the lobby probably wondering what I was doing sitting there by myself with a bunch of stuff I can barely carry). I drag all my stuff back to the car, get in, drive the 15 minutes back home, crying the whole way. Get home, Bob looks at me funny wondering why I'm home. He's just about to put Ryan to bed. I tell Bob the story and he bursts out in hysterical laughter, upsetting me even more. Now I'm just inferiated!

I really can't believe I mixed up the weeks. I don't think I'm meant to do this presentation. I'm about ready to just give it up!

I think the clomid has really messed up my emotions. I don't normally get that upset over something like this. Normally I would have said, yeah, that was stupid, and moved on. Or I would have told Bob "I was just really early (by a week!)." But not last night...I was literally so upset I was bawling so hard in the car I could barely drive. That is not like me at all. Even this morning I started crying when Ryan started singing "Go Diego Go" with the tv. What is wrong with me???

So that is a "oops that was stupid" moment from me. I feel better about it now...I can laugh about it now. But man was I upset last night!

my thoughts this morning

Well, tonight I have another go at my presentation. Yep, the one I was supposed to give 2 weeks ago and was called off due to a special guest speaker. So I'm doing it tonight, supposedly anyway. I haven't even looked at any of my info since I brought it home that night! I have no preperation for this thing now! I guess I'll wing it. It's just talking about me anyway...so I guess no prep needs to be done. I have all the pictures on the boards and everything I want to bring, just not sure what I'm going to say!

I plan on doing some updates to the blog too. I want to spruce it up a bit....I just haven't had the time to do it yet. I still need to figure out how to do some things! I can be rather computer illiterate at times.

I've been thinking about Christmas. Hard to believe the holidays aren't too far off. I love Christmas...it's my favorite holiday. I can't wait to start decorating the house for Christmas..put the tree up and all! I need to start my Christmas shopping soon too! What to get a 3 yr old??

Candy

After taking Ryan trick or treating last weekend, I figured we'd have some candy leftover and I'd just have a few pieces. Nope...that's not the way it works apparently! Ryan got a whole load of candy....and since he can't have anything with peanuts or peanut butter in it, I separated what he can and cannot have. Adding to that the extra candy we had leftover from giving it out, we have a whole plastic bag full of candy!!! All I can say is wow. I've been eating this stuff like a pig all week!!! I'm starting to feel rather guilty...I'm probably going to gain 10 pounds by the time this candy is gone. But I can't resist chocolate!! oh well....guess I'll enjoy it anyway while it lasts!! *chump chump* mmmmm good snickers!

I O'd!

Sorry I haven't written in a few days...every time I try to sit down and write something I get interrupted!!

I finally O'd!! I was so excited that I O'd early too!! So now I'm in the dreaded 2ww. I have noticed quite a difference in my cycle since being on clomid. My O date was earlier, my temps are higher, and I have watery cm today! Too early to tell anything though....need to wait it out I guess. Wish me luck!!

Darn OPKs!!

One thing I hate about ttc...those darn OPKs!! Why can't they just make OPKs that are easy to read? One line your not Oing, two lines you are Oing. None of this if one line is darker that means you are Oing but if the other line is darker a bird on the other side of the world just ate a donut! huh? exactly!!! Darn OPKs!!
I took one yesterday (of course because I have to satisfy my urge to POAS since CD 12!), and the test line was barely there. Definite neg. Today I take the test at the same time as always, and I can barely tell if it's neg or not! The test line is real dark...but not quite as dark as the control line. So is it neg or pos? Of course I record it as neg because while looking at it for 10 minutes straight, holding it up to the light, and scrutinizing it at every angle, it doesn't make it any less pos. Now the real question...what do I do with this info? Should I take another test at 6pm to make sure I don't miss the surge? Or should I just record it as neg, act like it's neg, and take another one tomorrow? I normally would do that, but because Bob's libido is so darn low most of the time....I don't want to BD unless absolutely necessary. (sounds bad I know, but he doesn't like to BD more than once every few days). But I don't want to miss out on our chance of getting pg this cycle either...since we are paying out of pocket for the clomid. *sigh* Those darn OPKs!!!