Writers Wednedsay 6/28/06

Here is an excerpt from the book I'm currently working on. I decided to scrap this scene and rewrite it....so this portion will not be in the book. But you get a feel for what I've been working on lately.


“Want some coke?” Mark offered a share of his drugs. “It’s a good distraction. You can get that pop princess out of your head.” Mark tried to convince him as a scantily clad brunette wandered over to Michael. She cooed in his ear how she was a fan and wanted to buy him a drink. What the hell he thought and agreed. She made herself comfortable in his arm. He shook his head at Mark, letting him know he didn’t want to get high, and raised his eyebrows as he motioned toward the chick in his arm. Mark tipped his beer up in response, narrowly spilling it and proceeding to laugh hysterically.
“Hey Michael, this is Bambi. She wanted to say hi, if you know what I mean.” Grayson strolled over with a blonde on his right arm and a brunette on his other arm. Bambi sauntered into Michael’s arm, batting her eyelashes, flipping her blonde hair back, and bouncing her boobs in her low-cut shirt.
Michael took another swig of his beer and chastised himself for thinking of her again. He made sure to pay better attention to the chicks at hand. He was really hoping to go home with one to keep his mind distracted.
Just as he was about to offer his services for the night to Bambi, a movement ahead caught his attention. He turned his head to look and saw the unmistakable red hair flowing. Becca was here? When the hell did she show up? She was walking briskly to the door. Michael stepped forward, calling out her name. The groupies were still attached to him arms, so he didn’t get very far. He didn’t think she saw him, but she sure seemed to be in a hurry to get out of there.
His heart beat rapidly. He hadn’t expected to see her until the recording on Monday. He didn’t think her “man” was into night clubs, and never expected her to show up at the Factory.
“Wasn’t that Becky?” Grayson stood next to Michael, his eyes glazed over from weed, the chick on his arm kissing his dimpled cheek.
“Yeah, that was.” Michael’s voice was lost among the music and noise, the girls pulled him back to the bar and bought him another drink.
“Forget her Mike. She ain’t worth it. Here, have some on me.” Mark slurred his words as he slipped some coke in Michael’s hand.
“Man, no thanks. You know I don’t do that stuff anymore.” Michael was getting tired of telling Mark no frequently. He was always pushing stuff onto him, and frankly, Michael was getting worried, as Mark was starting to go overboard with it.
“Tiff and I are leaving, heading back to my place.” Grayson announced, raising his eyebrows, a sly smile on his face. Normally that was Michael’s cue to leave with a chick on his arm too. But tonight he just couldn’t; he just was to preoccupied and didn’t feel right about bagging a chick when all he could think about was Becca. Why did she run out of there like that? What was he doing by not talking to her anymore? He was more confused than ever, and sex was not going to make things better for him, as difficult a concept that was for him to manage.
“I’m going to get going too.” Michael pushed the ladies off his arms gently, letting them know he was going to go home alone tonight. He noticed the way Grayson and Mark looked at each other, the worried looks on their faces, but he didn’t care. His heart just wasn’t into it tonight.
“You ok Michael?” Grayson put his hand on his shoulder, his eyes genuinely concerned. Michael’s answer to that of course was no, he wasn’t ok. He didn’t want to be stuck at some night club, looking for meaningless sex and drugs. He wanted to be with Becca. It wasn’t supposed to go down like this. This was not the way he had imagined the time Becca was here to be. But it was too late to do anything now.
“Yeah man, I’m fine. I got a long week coming up.” He lowered his eyes. Michael felt bad; he rarely turned down the groupies, but he just didn’t want to explain his situation to the guys and didn’t want the girls to think he was not as cool as he used to be. At this point he was ready to say just about anything to get out of there. He felt so out of control, and he hated that. He was looking forward to the end of the week when everything would be back to normal. Becca would be out of his life again, and he would be back to his usual lifestyle. He just wasn’t sure that was exactly what was best, or what he wanted. His heart ached as he realized it would never be over; he would never be over her, no matter what he did. His only hope was to ignore the flutter in his heart, the nagging in his mind. He just hoped he could live like that for the rest of his life.

Opinions!!

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I will continue to do Writer's Wed (I know I slacked off last week...with the whole pg news I just was too excited to think of anything else)...but I would like opinions on what you would like to read.

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New blog!

I have a new blog! It's all about my pregnancy and miracle baby! I don't want this blog to be nothing but pg....so I made a whole new blog. Check it out!! Come share in my joy with me.

slacking

I know I know! I've been slacking on the blog again! There hasn't been much to update on unless you care to hear all about the symptoms of my pg. (do you really want to hear about the fatigue and frequent urination?)

Not much has been going on. It's actually been a quiet week around here. Other than telling various people, no real excitement.
I babysat my neighbor's kids on Monday afternoon. I got a taste of what it will be like with 2 kids. Not bad. For the one day anyway. haha

This weekend is Father's Day. I will be telling the rest of my family. I'm looking forward to that!

Hope to find something exciting to update you all on soon. I feel like a pretty boring person right now! haha

PIctures

Here is the picture of the cake and strawberries for dh. For some reason blogger wouldn't let me put it on the last post.



Here is Ryan in his I'm the Big Brother t-shirt. He looks so proud!!

How I told....

Here is how I told dh. The last two pregnancies I was so excited over it that I just rushed into telling him. (With Ryan I POAS during breakfast and was so excited I ran out to tell him and showed him the stick over eggs, with the m/c the line was so faint I couldn't tell if it was a BFP or not so I showed him). So this time I wanted to do something different.

I'm due on Valentines day (how AMAZING is that?!!) so I thought I'd get a cake with red flowers on it and write on it Miracle Baby due 2-14-07. Then I got some strawberries (I craved strawberries like you wouldn't believe when I was pg with Ryan) in a bowl. I was originally going to do this all Wed night when I found out....but it would figure his work would not cooperate with me. It was the ONE night he had to work at night!!! He didn't get home until 2am. So I did it in the morning...cake for breakfast!! LOL
I put the cake and the strawberries on the table and he came in the room and smiled. I tried to get Ryan to say "I'm going to be a big brother" but the silly 3.5 yr old that he is refused to say it. (I don't want to say that mommy). So I ended up saying it and dh was laughing. He didn't have teh emotional response I was hoping for, but I know he's happy.
He's probably happy mainly because we don't need to time sex anymore!!! hahaha

I told my parents on Friday. I got a t-shirt for Ryan that says "I'm the Big Brother" and had him wear it to their house on Friday. My mom was the first to see him. She didn't get the concept at first....wondered who gave him the shirt and why he was wearing a t-shirt on a cold day. She kept saying it over and over until finally it clicked! She looked at me with wide eyes "YOU'RE PREGNANT?!" When I nodded she didn't believe me! (of course, I wouldn't have believed it either...after 2 yrs you tend to doubt). It was priceless and I wish I had the video camera.

My dad was at work at the time, so we went to go see him. It took him even longer to figure out the shirt. We practically had to spell it out to him. LOL But once he got it he started crying! I started crying then!! LOL He couldn't stop staying how happy he was! (he's been asking for another grandchild for a while now). It was just so special.

I still have so many more people to tell. I will tell the rest of my family on Father's Day. Then there's the people at church tomorrow and other various friends. The more people I tell the more real it feels. This really is happening!!

Finally....a BFP!!!!

I can't believe it!!!!!!!!!!! After 26 loooong months.....just over 2 years of ttc/infertility.....I finally got a BFP!!!!!!!!! I'm in complete and utter shock!

I have been feeling symptoms since 6 DPO....sore boobs, af like cramps, fatigue. I even had an aversion to veggie dip for a day. I KNEW something was up, but I took a test on 9 DPO and it was neg. Figured I was imagining the symptoms. I had been spotting for about 5 days, so I figured af was on her way. On 11 DPO my temp went up....which it NEVER does that far into my lp (I normally don't even have an lp that long) so I tested using Dollar Tree. Got a faint line. Tried FRER and got a definite BFP!!!! Woo hooo!!!! I called my OB and she had me come in for a blood test...my hcg level on 11 DPO was 30!!! Very good so far!!! And just to be sure I'm not day dreaming...I took another Dollar Tree test today (14 DPO) and got a VERY definite BFP!!!!! I'm still in such shock!!! I never thought it would happen. I was just getting used to the idea of Ryan being the only child. Miracles really do happen.

I think God was just waiting for me to give it all up to Him. After clomid failed, I couldn't deal with it anymore. I gave up my journey to Him. I started to trust in Him fully and learn to live and be happy with my situation. I think God said "FINALLY!". Amazing things do happen when you believe!!! :D

I'm feeling good right now. Tired. I get worn out pretty quickly. I still have af like cramps...they come and go. They get worse when I'm active. Boobs aren't quite as sore.

My OB has put me on progesterone supplements due to previous m/c, and my LPD. I started those today. I won't even go into the issues I had with that. (well, maybe later).

I still can't believe it!! I'm so excited I could burst!!! I have been wanting this for so long.
26 months of ttc
20 months of charting
numerous dr appts
a Lap and HSG 3 months vitamin B6 numerous months of drinking green tea preseed OPK's
3 months of clomid
1 month clomid and progesterone
2 months of Vitex

Been a very long road. It all seems so surreal.

Please pray this baby sticks.

And go figure...it was a birthday conception, and a Valentine's baby!! I'm due on Valentine's Day! God's timing really is perfect!

Thanks to everyone who has stuck by me and supported me through this whole ordeal! I appreciate it!!!

Just to let you know....

I haven't forgotten about the blog!!! It's been a crazy week and I will update very soon...hopefully tonight. Just wanted to post a message so that you all don't think I've deserted my blog!!!

New posts to come very soon!! Keep checking back!

What do you speak?

I got this from Cindy. This was fun. The only problem I had was they didn't have my choice for what you drink out of. We don't use water fountains or drinking fountians here. It's a bubbler. But I guess then it would say I'm 100% Milwaukean!

Your Linguistic Profile::

70% General American English

20% Upper Midwestern

5% Yankee

0% Dixie

0% Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

Song of the Day

Song of the day today is Hysteria by Def Leppard. One of my favorites.

It reminds me of my high school days. I'm not sure why exactly (or I don't really remember) but it always reminds me of my fantasy love back in the day. My fantasy love is a guy I liked in high school but it was a one way thing. We were friends, shared a kiss or two, but remained "just friends".

The song itself is a beautiful song. Very well written and the music in incredible. :) And well, it's Def Leppard so it's cool.

That's my review for the day :)

Flashback Friday

Here is a picture of Ryan when he was first born. This was taken when he was about 3 days old. If you notice, even the yellow knit hat that they give you at the hospital was too big on him. To this day he still sleeps like this. It's hard to believe he was once that small. He is wrapped in probably too many blankets (LOL) and is in a wedge that we purchased to allow him to sleep on his side. I'm not quite sure why we needed that, but I was told that he should sleep on his side. His crib and room was done in Baby Snoopy. His current room still is too. :)