Writers Wednesday 7/26

Finally, another writers Wed! Sorry it's been so long. Here is a poem I wrote.

When I Gave You My Heart

When I gave you my heart
I didn't expect you to give it back,
bleeding internally,
crushed by your inhumane abuse.

My heart was strong,
made of arms of steel.
But it could not compete
with your heart of rage.

Your angry fists pound me
like an earthquake beating the earth.
The sharp words you speak
lash me in the face, as if

a train passed through my heart.
Our vows are lies,
a thunderstorm of brutality
wiping out my last defense.

Ryan and the baby

I've been talking about the baby here and there with Ryan...but I know he doesn't quite get the concept yet. I think it might be a rude awakening when we actually come home with one. LOL
But anyway, every once in a while he'll ask "Is mommy having a baby?" and I'll say yes, mommy is having a baby and it's in mommy's belly. then he's satisified and lets it go.

Well, today we were outside with Bob and Ryan and Bob were wrestling around, and Ryan went flying right into my belly. It hurt...but it wasn't anything too bad (like I don't have to go to the dr from the hit). But it did hurt and I said oww, that hurt. Bob asked where and I said he hit the baby. Ryan immediately ran over to me, put his hand on my shoulder, said "I'm sorry mommy" in a sad little voice, and the bent down and kissed my belly and said "baby is ok." It was just so sweet....and the first time that he really showed he understood what I was talking about and seemed ok with it.

In Oct when we get our family pics taken and Ryan's birthday pics taken, I want to get a pic of Ryan hugging and/or kissing my belly (baby). I think that would be so sweet!

*sigh* I love my little boy.

Haven't posted in ages

Sorry I've been neglecting my blog. There just hasn't been much to update on...and I just haven't been motivated to really write much or do much! We've been busy spending a lot of time outside when the weather is nice.
I guess I don't have anything too interesting too say! Hope to be back to posting on a regular basis soon.

Cat bath= drowned rat

DH gave Cally a bath yesterday. (I wish I had gotten pictures, but I was outside with Ryan in the pool so I couldn't grab the camera). I always call her a drowned rat...she looks so hiliarous when she's wet. Poor thing hates baths too. I always make dh do it because I can't hold her as she fights it.
But now our white cat is white again. And she smells good too. I keep picking her up and smelling her!! LOL

And what does she do after she's been bathed and is still semi wet?



Of course, this picture is actually from last week...but you get the idea. She decided to sleep in our bed..underneath the covers while she's still wet. Silly kitty.

Sprinker fun

It's been a very hot weekend, so we brought out the sprinkler for Ryan. It was his first experience with the sprinkler. At first he just stood in one spot and let it come to him. I had to run through it with him to get him to go through it. He still won't go through it on his own, but now he at least goes up to it and puts his hands on it! haha We got him a new pool too and he swam in that this weekend, but I didn't get pictures yet.



Ryan and I running through. I can't fit into my swim suit anymore so I had to wear regular clothes!

The zoo

Friday night we went to the zoo with some friends. My friend has a zoo membership and can get us in free. It happened to be open to zoo members Friday evening, so we decided to go. Ryan liked it, but was disappointed because one of the main reasons we wanted to go was to see the new dinosaur exhibit. Unfortunately, because we only have a short amount of time there (6pm-9pm), after eating and waiting over an hour for the train, we didn't make it to the dinosaurs. He was rather upset, but I told him we'd go back some other day.
We felt rather rushed and didn't really get a chance to look at anything. I don't think we'll go back at night again since it's just too much of a hassle and too rushed. But made for a decent night out. Hopefully we'll make it back there again this summer.

Supergroup

While still on the rock star theme....I had been also watching a show on VH1 called Supergroup. The last episode was last week, but it was an excellent show. The concept was taking 5 super stars (including Sebastian Bach, Ted Nugent, and Scott Ian), having them live in a house together for 12 days, and they had to come up with an original song and come up with and be ready for a concert on the 12th day. It was really interesting to see how the guys related to each other and how they got along not only with each other (and the PR team, etc) but how they related to the manager.
It was awesome to watch...and I got a much better perspective as to who Sebastian and Ted really are.
It was very helpful research for my book too....to see the different personalities of rock stars and managers, and to see how it all works. Great show.

Rock Star

I've been watching a new show that started last week. Rock Star: Supernova. It's the second season...the first season was with INXS. I fell in love with this show last season. JD Fortune won last year, though my personal favorite was Marty Casey. This year instead of an already existing band, they have started a whole new "superband" with Tommy Lee. The show still has the same format, and I'm still loving it. I don't have a favorite as of yet, but there are still 14 finalists left, so I'm sure I'll find someone I really like. The winner fronts the band Supernova, making a record and going on tour with them.

Anyway, great show!!

Smores!

Yesterday FINALLY was a nice day (no rain for a change) so we were finally able to grill! We had ribs and chicken on the grill. YUM!

But then we had a very special treat....we mades smores! It was Ryan's first time roasting marshmellows, and eating smores. He loved it! He asked to do it every time daddy grills! haha Not sure about that.

Here he is having a blast roasting the marshmellows on the grill.



Ryan and I roasting marshmellows. It just isn't the same without a campfire though.



The finished product. Don't they look yummy?



And of course, Ryan enjoying them! He had 1 and a half! He loved them!

4th of July

We had a good Independance day. I decided to take Ryan to a parade. There weren't any around us (of course) but there was one in the town next to my parents. So we drove to my parents house and ate lunch, then they took Ryan and I to the parade. I wasn't too sure how well Ryan would sit, but he loved every second of it! He sat in his little lawnchair the whole hour long parade! He loved the firetrucks, the marching bands, and of course, all the candy they throw out for the kids!
He had a great time and really enjoyed it.

Here is grandpa, grandma, and Ryan just before the parade.

No more rocking!

Tonight I tried something completely new. I stopped rocking Ryan before bed for the first time tonight. (yes, I'm one of those mothers that rocks their kids to sleep).

I used to rock him to sleep, then after a while, he didn't need it to fall asleep, but just as a means to calm down before bedtime, then it became more of a bonding thing.....more like a way for me to hold on to his "baby"-ness. A few months ago I toned down the rocking to just about 3 minutes...just enough to keep him and myself happy to get him to go to bed.

But the last few weeks he has been too resless during it...talking, fidgety...and I realized he's just way too big for this. Not to mention a new little one will be coming along....I will be too big to rock him soon, and with a new baby next year it just won't be possible. I sucked it up and decided tonight we would try something new.

We read books like normal, changed into jammies and brushed teeth like normal, then I told him to go to his room and I tucked him in. He understood when I told him he's too big for rocking. He didn't cry, but I did have to go in his room 3 times. He seems fine though. Ahhh, onto a new phase.

I'm so proud of him....and myself for letting go. :) It was hard to do, but it was time.

2 years

I didn't have a chance to post this yesterday, but yesterday marks the 2 year anniversary of when I received Christ as my Savior. I have now been saved and became a born again Christian for 2 years! It doesn't seem like it's been that long! I have learned so much but yet have so much further to go. Christ has carried me through so much in the last 2 years. I am so blessed. Praise God!!

Great movie!

One of my favorite movies is on tonight (well, of my millions of favorite movies LOL). How to Lose a Guy in 10 days. Great movie. Love Kate Hudson...she's so cute in this movie, and Matthew McConaughey is really cute. I love the chemistry. Dh doesn't care much for it because it's a "chick flick", but I love it. But then, I have always loved the romantic chick flick comedys.